tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-46777018122023829072024-03-05T16:47:07.832-08:00Scribeskidrowskidrowscribehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02420413452464606978noreply@blogger.comBlogger412125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677701812202382907.post-15540907215677304722010-05-29T12:54:00.000-07:002010-05-29T13:05:42.562-07:00<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjnk26HNifDZYtY81rmVweJkEjfTDDwYOImIp-p5yJU4iYVXFrTZ21b-m2fdg3uE7tRL1VeKBWGJUkzQsTzQljHEaFa0nUipuV3TkCkd2Kobj_srbzsp4Wm08qZInksC24WZkz00oPvLiox/s1600/LL+Cool+J+and+General+Jeff.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 268px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjnk26HNifDZYtY81rmVweJkEjfTDDwYOImIp-p5yJU4iYVXFrTZ21b-m2fdg3uE7tRL1VeKBWGJUkzQsTzQljHEaFa0nUipuV3TkCkd2Kobj_srbzsp4Wm08qZInksC24WZkz00oPvLiox/s400/LL+Cool+J+and+General+Jeff.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5476783176920523442" /></a><br /><br />General Jeff and LL Cool got together recently to discuss Skid Rowskidrowscribehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02420413452464606978noreply@blogger.com54tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677701812202382907.post-73402596292141969052010-03-15T22:46:00.000-07:002010-03-15T22:47:51.116-07:00LIFE<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjde3IIFFjhCm4I8wn8kPtQf1pk7B9X353DYy3Lk9QIbR_-mz5TbxGrOfgP99dKvcZey5KRhEakw6UQSn12FG2DlbPBjH4B5hW7cEXoQQnfH0RESMYLq2zUXOC9FeeAvbOyWXWPl_ZrjeLa/s1600-h/Skidrow+Bentover+Man.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 326px; height: 246px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjde3IIFFjhCm4I8wn8kPtQf1pk7B9X353DYy3Lk9QIbR_-mz5TbxGrOfgP99dKvcZey5KRhEakw6UQSn12FG2DlbPBjH4B5hW7cEXoQQnfH0RESMYLq2zUXOC9FeeAvbOyWXWPl_ZrjeLa/s400/Skidrow+Bentover+Man.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5449104129987180114" /></a>skidrowscribehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02420413452464606978noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677701812202382907.post-4009408948557468872009-11-03T11:56:00.000-08:002009-11-03T12:23:32.200-08:00Skidrow and Facebook Team UP.<br />Last week someone asked, “Walter, where do you believe the fight for the people of Skid Row- the homeless, HIV/AIDS patients, and otherwise forgotten, ignored and disenfranchised in Los Angeles- is being waged the strongest. Is it in the traditional media, print and broadcasting? Is it in City Hall?”. “No, none of the above!!!” I responded without hesitation. “The battle for the people of Skid Row, the homeless and other similar social causes is being waged fiercely on the internet!!” <br />From <a href="http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=212673116240&v=photos&ref=nf#/home.php?ref=logo">Facebook</a> to the <a href="http://huffingtonpost.com/">Huffington Post</a>, the new electronic media is an effective megaphone, its advancing the causes that hunger for attention and assistance. An army of advocates, social workers, lawyers and individual citizens engage each other in conversation, debate and recruitment for their cause of choice. Community advocates dispatch mass emails to promote their causes as well as update their constituency with breaking news of ongoing issues. Benito Compito, founder of the Skid Row 3on3 Streetball League, and General Jeff, the DLANC (Downtown Los Angeles Neighborhood Council have been very adroit at utilizing this vehicle. <br />A Skid Row fraternity is flourishing on the internet and Facebook. Former workers who have transferred out of the neighborhood and current workers, along with past and present denizens, use the most popular and far reaching social network on the internet to stay connected and dialogue about Skid Row issues. . Through this interaction, a viral process increasingly widens its audience as it engages the community and furthers its awareness of various social issues connected to homelessness and mental health. In addition to educating the network community, the phenomena also serves to increase active participation in the form of volunteers and donations.<br />A deputy city attorney associated with the initial phase of the Safe City Initiative believes the proliferation of the Skid Row community on the internet began out of frustration. “Many of us who worked in Skid Row wanted to make a difference…to get things done… to help people. At times it was frustrating. I used to go to meeting after meeting. It felt like people just wanted to have meetings just to have meetings. Nothing ever got done. Sometimes approved action plans of important matters like removing numerous homeless off the streets and placing them into housing were stalled until a county supervisor received top marquee billing for the plan. It was as if people wanted to sabotage progress. The internet takes ideas straight to the public. We receive immediate feedback and can mobilize support when we post messages.”<br /> Several executive directors of nonprofit organizations active in the Skid Row Community are firm believes in the power of the internet. Andy Bales, CEO, <a href="http://www.urm.org/">Union Rescue Mission </a>states “Yes, Walter, although Direct mail donations are down, internet giving and Facebook/Twitter/Social Media is gaining momentum for advancing the cause. It is gradually taking the place of Direct Mail for fundraising, and is far superior for connecting with volunteers and stirring up a cause. Grace Dyrness, former CEO, <a href="http://www.lacehh.org/">LACEH&H</a>(Los Angeles Coalition to End Hunger and Homelessness)adds “It is so important to communicate on the internet because that is becoming the best way of communication. Our electronic newsletter definitely gets a response (although not in money) and we are finding that as the most effective way to get information out to people. Email has definitely been the best way to work with others when you need a rapid response on issues. Joel John Roberts, CEO, <a href="http://www.pathpartners.org/">PATH </a>(People Assisting The Homeless) Partners, continues, “I think the partnership between social media and nonprofits is still young. Larger nonprofits are just getting into online media. The power in social media to mobilize communities, empower people who are disenfranchised and for soliciting donations is significant. I think in the next five years it will take off.” <br />The internet also serves well those journalists with a penchant toward advocacy as an alternative vehicle for their stories. If done well, Celeste Fremon, publisher of <a href="http://witnessla.com/">Witness LA.com</a> and writer for the Huffington Post says, “When I want to do a story or focus reader attention on someone who would traditionally be voiceless, their problems ignored by the conventional media, I no longer have to persuade an editor to let me do the story. With the advent of blogs and Internet news sites, I can just write the story. And if I'm smart about it, I can get others to pick up my story, so that it migrates to an arena beyond my own readers. At times, this means it migrates to mainstream media, as well.”<br /><br />If you want to know what is happening in the world of social entrepreneurship, stay on line. Pick a news site, or social network. It is where the action is.skidrowscribehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02420413452464606978noreply@blogger.com15tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677701812202382907.post-42291301368682965272009-10-28T13:06:00.000-07:002009-10-28T14:23:26.118-07:00Was This Really Necessary?<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhQ5KQcDlgusm-SzOOV9IuCEaznKSoUR74HSTW_yNMIhThazOS8anUfkJ-JxNqXTnEg4vWTpf36TvTCkxMgwc5Y39A-foMevakikS2HdjPIf7_VxMzXFoTokuvG_-x8i23zoHg4cv7w9wLM/s1600-h/Lady+and+LAPD.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 300px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhQ5KQcDlgusm-SzOOV9IuCEaznKSoUR74HSTW_yNMIhThazOS8anUfkJ-JxNqXTnEg4vWTpf36TvTCkxMgwc5Y39A-foMevakikS2HdjPIf7_VxMzXFoTokuvG_-x8i23zoHg4cv7w9wLM/s400/Lady+and+LAPD.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5397745424400679410" /></a> <br /><br />This extremely mentally ill woman, who does not comprehend anything, was receiving a ticket for jay walking. Was this really necessary. She will not be able to pay the ticket. It is excess work for those who already are snowed under. Does it help the woman? The officers approached her from behind, tight to her so she was not aware of their presence. They could have approached her from a wider angle instead of making her jump ten feet in the air when she realized the huge horses were in her presence.<br /><br />Did this event help her or the city?skidrowscribehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02420413452464606978noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677701812202382907.post-64968880074829909492009-08-12T23:25:00.001-07:002009-08-13T09:31:22.884-07:00LA Times Is Not a Good Neighbor to Skid Row<span xmlns=''><p> This morning I read the article the LA Times published about the murders at the Lamp residential building in the Skid Row community. It is now twelve hours later and I am still wondering what the purpose of the article was. I found out about the article when a former counselor in one of the many Skid Row programs called me to inform me about it. Yes, the article created a stir but not much more. The only thing it did was continue to associate Skid Row with drugs and crime. And yet there is so much more to the community.<br /></p><p>The Los Angeles Times and the Skid Row community are neighbors. Skid Row is known as the homeless capital of the United States. There is no other member of the press in the country which is in a better position than the Los Angeles Times to examine the complex forces which culminate in the ever increasing homeless population in a community two blocks away from its headquarters. It can serve as the lightning rod for the Los Angeles community, as well as others, to end this problem. I have said many times, "if you solve the problems of Skid Row, you solve the problems of this country." The LA Times is at ground zero of many of the issues which plague America. It neither examines the negative forces within it, nor reports on the various grassroots movements sprouting within its borders to bring about positive change. Instead, it lowers itself to tabloid journalism and sensationalizes a double murder in community about which it knows nothing.<br /></p><p>When was the last time the LA Times talked about Skid Row? Oh yes, I believe it was during the premiere of 'The Soloist' when every mainstream media outlet joined the 'hoopla bandwagon' surrounding the movie. It was not going to be left out of course. But it fails to take the lead in doing an in debt series on a community which is a mirror of many threads which comprise the fabric of America. There is enough about Skid Row, positive and negative to earn its own section in the Los Angeles Times.<br /></p><p>The writer singles out the Lamp organization for failing to protect its residents. Let me presume to educate this writer. Drugs are sold and done in practically every building in Skid Row. I am in a position to comment on it. I lived in three Skid Row buildings. In each of them there was a constant battle to keep drugs out. Drug dealers, as well as users are ingenious at devising ways to smuggle drugs into the residential buildings. Every night I hear security guards chatter on the walkie-talkies. They vigilantly report to their supervisors that doors and windows are secured. I currently work in a residential hotel in Skid Row. Among other things, it is my job to monitor the conduct of visitors which enter the facility. I never know if a guest is upset at a person residing in the building. I never know if a guest has a secret agenda of taking revenge for an insult, real or imagined. I never know if a tenant, lucid yesterday, forgot to take his meds today and believes that the world is out to kill him. When that happens, violent behavior can occur at any time. Every manager of a Skid Row building knows who is selling and/or using drugs in it. There is little anyone can do about it unless it is done openly. We cannot search people even when it is obvious they are bringing drugs into a building. <br /></p><p>When was the last time a member of the Los Angeles Times staff talked to residents or workers other than during a high profile issue? I talked to General Jeff, <a href='http://dlanc.com/'>Downtown Los Angeles Neighborhood Council</a> board member representing Skid Row, in the beginning of his second year in office. Few people know the various components of Skid Row and how they intersect like he does. I asked him if the writer of the Lamp article has talked to him. "I have never talked to anyone from the LA Times since I was elected as a DLANC board member." Why do they not talk about the many things that are happening in Skid Row? "Walter, they do not want to talk about anything good that goes on in Skid Row!!!" he added.<br /></p><p>Skid Row is not a static environment. The nature of the neighborhood is in constant motion as are many of the residents which come and go on a daily basis. I have been a part of the community for a long time. I struggle to understand it and the many challenges it faces. I am here every day and must update myself on the minute changes. And yet, a writer who spends no time in the community-who has no investment in it- publishes a skewed snapshot of it(as if the snapshot of this Lamp facility is an aberration in the community), and, in its wake, Skid Row residents, unnerved, hustle for answers about their safety and the genuine dedication of social service providers to ensure it. When the dust settles, the writer knows no more about the community than he did before the murders took place.<br /></p><p>If The Los Angeles Times spent any time gardening in its backyard, it would learn that many beautiful things are growing in Skid Row; the Skid Row Photography Club, Film Club, 3on3 Streetball League and the newly formed Skid Row Bureau of Journalism. These grassroots organizations serve to uplift the self esteem of the residents. Stories about those organizations may encourage people in the city, starving to find ways to help, to contribute their talent and or results to further progress. Instead, articles like the one published this morning, have the residents feeling bitter; their community is only featured when the stories can give an "Oh My God" reaction from the readership. Moreover, people are scared to become involved.<br /></p><p>People who live in Skid Row have so little but give so much to each other. America needs to learn more about the quality of this community. The spirit of giving and caring blankets the environment. Thr, e LA Times, which has so much, gives so little attention and help to its neighbor. It reminds me of the 1960's character Mrs Kravitz in the sitcom Bewitched. Mrs. Kravitz would either visit the Stevens house only when she wanted to dig up some dirt or sneak across the street and peer through the Stevens' blinds until she saw something. Then she would run back across the street screaming and yelling until she could find anyone to whom she could gossip about her latest discovery. ,<br /></p><p>The LA Times, not taking the lead in shedding light on the myriad of complex forces that plague Skid Row, and thus, America, should just run back across the street to its big building and draw down the blinds and hide in fear of its neighbor until it has the guts to come out and discover the people of Skid Row are like the bear, Gentle Ben. Until it does and begins to report about Skid Row in an active effort to bring change, it will only sound like the gossipy Mrs. Kravitz.<br /></p><p><br/> </p></span>skidrowscribehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02420413452464606978noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677701812202382907.post-79152237753851735532009-07-27T08:16:00.000-07:002009-07-27T08:51:21.859-07:00States Are Making Cuts While Banks Are Posting ProfitsArianna Huffington writes an interesting <a href="http://www.huffingtonpost.com/arianna-huffington/states-forced-to-cut-serv_b_244039.html">article</a> about how 39 states are forced to cut surfaces while the banks which received the bail out funds are posting profits. <br /><br />Many of those cuts are services for the elderly,children, mentally ill and low income families. The cuts are coming at a time when people need them the most. It is an analysis of the opportunity cost incurred in bailing out the banks at the expense of the well being of the United States citizen.<br /><br />Please <a href="http://www.huffingtonpost.com/arianna-huffington/states-forced-to-cut-serv_b_244039.html">read</a> it.skidrowscribehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02420413452464606978noreply@blogger.com226tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677701812202382907.post-52583167722710852822009-07-15T09:39:00.000-07:002009-07-15T09:55:17.277-07:00Los Angeles Ranked As Meanest City In The Country for HomelessThe City of Los Angeles is accused of criminalizing its homeless population. In a report done by two Los Angeles Advocacy Groups, is labeled as the meanest city in the country for people who do not have shelter.<br /><br />The National Law Center on Homelessness & Poverty and the National Coalition for the Homeless perfomed a study of 273 cities and placed Los Angeles at the top of the list. In 2006, Los Angeles was number 18 on the 'mean cities' list.<br /><br /><a href="http://news.yahoo.com/s/nm/20090715/ts_nm/us_usa_homeless_losangeles">Read the Yahoo article</a> published yesterday.skidrowscribehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02420413452464606978noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677701812202382907.post-33296687359170424772009-07-02T21:01:00.000-07:002009-07-02T21:24:10.259-07:00Echo Park<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh3gjmysWnbxQnl7SQuxfyn60pc0j6yWsf_Z0fbMFPtGGAFJiNbR5tA3pIuPSuhLPDWZKnsnXd3dGxML1vSOjb5WP08W1mmjRu2VqpSxPHyXgkWCH9LBGjBLSg3-DGRsQG9uvYMpmh_cR12/s1600-h/Echo+Park+Bridge.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 225px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh3gjmysWnbxQnl7SQuxfyn60pc0j6yWsf_Z0fbMFPtGGAFJiNbR5tA3pIuPSuhLPDWZKnsnXd3dGxML1vSOjb5WP08W1mmjRu2VqpSxPHyXgkWCH9LBGjBLSg3-DGRsQG9uvYMpmh_cR12/s400/Echo+Park+Bridge.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5354081084163008514" /></a>Echo Park is so beautiful. It was the first place I went fishing as my father took me there when I was 6 years old. I tried to catch a fish for a few hours and, then, when we were getting ready to leave,I felt something tug on the line. When I brought the fish up to the surface, it was very clear I had not skill. The fish did not take the bait. It swam by and the side of its body got snagged by the hook.<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhn-7JSEYE49HCex8coWZzPBvy7MZ_t02UK-BJDoWNNmkC9maWRigff5gDtCfQBJ7ZdeKNYbvz6cO-g3PCfiCj2cBFOa61EHacj19TtO4YEq1sjZT8yKGKm6qThchpqqO375TAddaLGX8R9/s1600-h/Downtown+From+Echo+Park.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 225px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhn-7JSEYE49HCex8coWZzPBvy7MZ_t02UK-BJDoWNNmkC9maWRigff5gDtCfQBJ7ZdeKNYbvz6cO-g3PCfiCj2cBFOa61EHacj19TtO4YEq1sjZT8yKGKm6qThchpqqO375TAddaLGX8R9/s400/Downtown+From+Echo+Park.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5354083959127140130" /></a>The view of the park reminds me how beautiful old Los Angeles is. The cascading palm trees are so picturesque.<br />And of course, one must always have a shot of the skyline from different perspectives when it is at all possible.skidrowscribehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02420413452464606978noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677701812202382907.post-75318484236943197422009-06-17T12:54:00.000-07:002009-06-24T20:02:04.749-07:00Are You In The Drug Business<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiBzTbfcEfkexuaud0NHM_lv1Qn2jwu_9FQPmAvpPpDVmQm1J4TFL2YATVLyn7QbhO5jmpwEXN_bLWLcMRRYS5EAcr1QJRHss7PACb7KriSj14cdAfd7aOlGYWWw85f-awjtQrxpSqaA4hr/s1600-h/Grandmother.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 225px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiBzTbfcEfkexuaud0NHM_lv1Qn2jwu_9FQPmAvpPpDVmQm1J4TFL2YATVLyn7QbhO5jmpwEXN_bLWLcMRRYS5EAcr1QJRHss7PACb7KriSj14cdAfd7aOlGYWWw85f-awjtQrxpSqaA4hr/s400/Grandmother.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5348387701046254562" /></a> Finally I was on may way. The address to the cemetery, burried in a pile of emails was found. Flowers were purchased in the morning as well as a new pair of short pants to be worn for the visit, one that I had postponed, or better yet avoided for a little while---32 years. <br /><br />On June 8, in the early morning overcast,I drove to the Lincoln Cemetery, in Carson. An historic cemetery Lincoln is filled with the names of people of color that contributed to the history of Los Angeles County. When one enters, in plane view is a monument in tribute to Private Anderson. Private Anderson was the black male in the United States Marine Corp to win a Congressional Medal of Honor when he threw himself on a grenade saving the lives of his fellow shoulders in Vietnam. <br /><br />Estella Melton was not killed in Vietnam. She was killed in Los Angeles(a Vietnam of sorts at the time of her death), by young men who robbed her to get money for drugs. Estella Melton is my Grandmother. She had a few dollars on her but they 'came up' when they found her gold necklace. It was discovered when a 'fence',a street pawn shop entrenpreneur, doubling as a drug dealer, was arrested for selling cocaine. He accepted the necklace in exchange change in exchange for drugs. Of course, the drug dealer felt he had nothing to do with my Grandmother's death.<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiQhoXxSOdzKWx_e3HRagtMV2OBmG5pK3M3YKiIbrBjN1o18zGb1SVMEjZFA5impbHqRtZo4GFK46l7a6lBRCCPHrRkQ_dsNEpyvj-K_JmwWd8mNAof7BsZntAVynxwPL-nxJaOqeGojK6U/s1600-h/walter+kneeling+at+grandmother%27s+grave.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 225px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiQhoXxSOdzKWx_e3HRagtMV2OBmG5pK3M3YKiIbrBjN1o18zGb1SVMEjZFA5impbHqRtZo4GFK46l7a6lBRCCPHrRkQ_dsNEpyvj-K_JmwWd8mNAof7BsZntAVynxwPL-nxJaOqeGojK6U/s400/walter+kneeling+at+grandmother%27s+grave.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5350715531434381874" /></a>Throughout Los Angeles, liquor store owners shun away drug addicts and dealers from standing in front of their stores. "Can't stand those dealers and addicts!!", bark the store owners, whether they are in Skid Row or in middle class neighborhoods elsewhere. "They steal." They do not believe they are in the drug business. Yet they sell Chore Boy and King lighters, the tools of choice by crack users. Chore Boy is the copper screen used to keep the melted rock cocaine from evaporating too quickly in order for the smoker to inhale the vapors created from heat applied. The heat is applied by the 'King' Lighters.<br /><br />Chore Boy is marketed as a dish washing tool and King lighters as any other regular cigarette lighter. However, police regard both as drug paraphernalia when discovered on someone's person. Though marketed as a household necessity, I am hard pressed to remember seeing any Chore Boy in the kitchens of anyone, even the kitchens of drug users. <br /><br />Is Chore Boy in the drug business or house cleaning business? Marketing executives ask themselves in what businesses or businesses are they wnen examining marketing campaigns and product positioning. Some business analysts argue that McDonald's, though known for its burgers and french fries, is not in the fast food business but in the real estate business as they are actually managing their retail real estate holdings in operating food outlets. <br /><br />As marketing executives examine their products, communities should ask themselves the same questions about the companies that sell products in their neighborhoods. What business is this company in? Do they have the communities interest at heart? I venture to say that a dominate percentage of Chore Boy sales of its product is to facilitate the easy usage of drugs, not for pot scrubbing. If so, Chore Boy is profiting from the drug trade with impunity. The company that distributes the product does not sale drugs but if drug usage and drug sales were to decrease then so would its income. <br /><br />Drug users rob people and burglarize homes. The property they seize is used as a medium of exchange to buy drugs. When drugs are purchased, supplies are needed to use them. Stores sell Chore Boy. Stores sell glass pipes which are used to smoke cocaine. Are these stores in the drug business? Should they be allowed to sell goods that are used to use drugs. Millions of dollars of pipes, Chore Boy and other supplies are sold each year. Alcoholism is major problem in communities of color as it is made easy to purchase it given the high amount of liquor stores per square mile that dominate these communities. <br /><br />How many Estella Meltons are injured or killed because a person, suffering from alcohol or drug addiction knows a 'fence' is waiting to receive the goods. They are quick to take them, knowing they can convert those goods into hard cash. Gold chains, power tools etc can easily be pawned at local pawn shops in exchange for cash. It does not concern them who was in the way when a drug addict burglarizes a house. The liquor stores do not care from where the money comes to purchase pipes and Chore Boy. Easy access encourages the addict to commit crimes,ruin his life and the lives of others as he knows he will be rewarded for his efforts. <br /><br />Family members of victims, traumatized by their loss, struggle to find closure to such events. Closure does not come easily. <br /><br />Stores that sell paraphernalia are in the drug business. They encourage addicts to continue using drugs, making it easy for them to obtain the equipment necessary to further them down the road of self destruction. They will continue to sell tools to use drugs, tools which help the dismantling of a community as long as a community allows it to happen. <br /><br />Is it possible to enact legislation barring such products from being sold within the city limits? Are communities able to protect themselves and their families from self destruction? Yes. Communities need to raise their voices about legal products sold within their communities for not only illegal purposes but harmful purposes as well. If we are to combat drugs in our communities, that battle must be on every front. We must get rid of every little virus that contributes to dysfunction. <br /><br />In Skid Row, former addicts, with indignation, deny they are in the drug world. The same individuals purchase hot goods, offered by active drug users desperate to find money to purchase drugs. They purchase food stamp cards at discounted prices from addicts who will go hungry but will not go without drugs. People who purchase hot merchandise or food stamp cards are contributing to the drug trade and the destruction of others, their families and their communities.<br /><br />If we are to eradicate drugs from our communities, every thing must be removed that is associated with drug equation. Along with the drugs and the dealers must go the drug supplies which accompany them and, if necessary, the establishments and/or individuals who sell products which harm our communities. If the removal of Chore Boy, King lighters, and glass pipes from store shelves in our neighborhoods discourages one person from purchasing drugs because supplies to smoke them are too difficult to obtain, or discourages one person from burglarizing a house or assaulting an elderly woman to obtain money for drugs or supplies because it is too difficult to access all of the variables necessary to satisfy the drug equation, that one person has a chance. He has a chance to end his drug use. He has a chance to stay out of jail. His family has a chance to avoid shedding tears when their hearts ache from missing him while he is in jail. The person has a chance of not hurting or killing someone. An elderly person has a chance of not being harmed or killed. A grandson will have a chance to enjoy his grandmother. That grandson will not struggle for 32 years to bring closure to such a painful event in his life.skidrowscribehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02420413452464606978noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677701812202382907.post-7005145399115552432009-05-30T14:08:00.000-07:002009-05-31T00:11:56.408-07:00Midnight Mission Hosts Clinic To Assist The Community with Traffic Tickets<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhOiWdi_QhiPyVzwqL0casKHPtUb9-9jG56ZE3v7ANTXO4rX4yl97YihGSlejjFmwp-Sw3uy1bi8YouEBcfn6mC69WOZppFoBSqzx2RWpfLHnYk9yBBl76_LaNL6t3W7Vho4bHSicUsPYNl/s1600-h/Midnight+MIssion+Ticket+Clinic.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 300px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhOiWdi_QhiPyVzwqL0casKHPtUb9-9jG56ZE3v7ANTXO4rX4yl97YihGSlejjFmwp-Sw3uy1bi8YouEBcfn6mC69WOZppFoBSqzx2RWpfLHnYk9yBBl76_LaNL6t3W7Vho4bHSicUsPYNl/s400/Midnight+MIssion+Ticket+Clinic.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5341862572096919666" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh4XosIdzkJvdflI1_kLswkvdK_jxq9ER5TyW6apg8iZqd8a-CFX2aUyZrEQRwa8NCYXakbWEnKyHavCppWhG5sD9yvA7Gg82n48Sl74VjdATKxsy6HJW3yAgoYEnnTQ4W-O_ed2M4W7E8d/s1600-h/Midnight+Mission.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 225px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh4XosIdzkJvdflI1_kLswkvdK_jxq9ER5TyW6apg8iZqd8a-CFX2aUyZrEQRwa8NCYXakbWEnKyHavCppWhG5sD9yvA7Gg82n48Sl74VjdATKxsy6HJW3yAgoYEnnTQ4W-O_ed2M4W7E8d/s400/Midnight+Mission.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5341751947238724674" /></a>The <a href="http://www.midnightmission.org/">Midnight Mission</a> has been a long standing advocate for the homeless and otherwise downtrodden. It has a a wide variety of programs to assist those who are resolute in facing the challenges that blanket their lives. It established itself as being in the vanguard, partnering with other Skid Row organizations while spearheading the negotiations with Hollywood power players to include Skid Row residents as background artists in the movie The Soloist, released earlier this year. <br /><br />After the negotiations were complete with Hollywood, Orlando Ward, Director of Public Relations for the Midnight Mission, led the Mission staff in conducting a smooth streamlined processing orientation for prospective background artists for the movie, talking and joking with residents when, occasionally, patience by some was giving way to short sighted outbursts. <br /><br />On Thursday May 21, The Midnight Mission, in partnership with the City Attorney's Office, hosted the Halo Clinic, a program to assist residents of Skid Row resolve their outstanding traffic tickets to avoid criminal prosecution. It took a year of negotiations and planning to make this clinic happen. The Mission staff was again courteous and efficient while handling the large crowd which gathered there to clear themselves of open traffic ticket cases. Residents from the various Skid Row programs as well as the homeless attended the clinic.skidrowscribehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02420413452464606978noreply@blogger.com52tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677701812202382907.post-15340098690932118302009-05-25T08:03:00.000-07:002009-05-25T16:59:46.623-07:00The Physically challenged Struggle When The Cameras And Spotlights Are Off<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhEFRK348s7Cqa5l_alfMPfc-Za1A40lkULVqUW3f0Z509o0S2ZQf54BMaYwaYZUSEjHiz_1Upz_SOZaHfxfTZ7-tDMsHOQwoBVHATk16wjCpn-Ot4fGZ3qwoga0nSk0MoekhaDulXJ8u-i/s1600-h/Cindy.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 225px; height: 400px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhEFRK348s7Cqa5l_alfMPfc-Za1A40lkULVqUW3f0Z509o0S2ZQf54BMaYwaYZUSEjHiz_1Upz_SOZaHfxfTZ7-tDMsHOQwoBVHATk16wjCpn-Ot4fGZ3qwoga0nSk0MoekhaDulXJ8u-i/s400/Cindy.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5339782945742258818" border="0" />Somewhere in my early blogging days, I went to Wells Fargo Bank on Spring St. Turning the corner from 4th Street onto Spring St. I came upon a huge protest by home care workers in front of the Reagan State Building. The demonstration was a vocal outcry against the feared budget cuts by Governor Schwarzenegger which would most likely cost them their jobs.
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<br />On Friday, May 22, I went to the same bank and came across another demonstration by the same workers for the same reason, to prevent the loss of jobs. The voting results on Tuesday motivated the unions to present a strong voice to the governor. Placards were everywhere: "Don't Risk Lives" was a prominent one held by protesters. The message was clear: If jobs are cut, people who need supportive services will be at risk.<iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.blogger.com/video.g?token=AD6v5dzi3TEhPzDPBKZMYLJLEJ5Mh3AIWI6r6QQ4FMFEn50BX0CB8ZUHHkA2QJSDNpjwWcuRRsPm0bV_q7qElnM' class='b-hbp-video b-uploaded' frameborder='0'></iframe>
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<br />Union Officials scuttled around to find those who were the most physically challenged to interview with the mainstream media, using the visual images of the physically challenged as a powerful weapon to grab the emotions of the viewers.
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<br />I watched all of this with a different eye from the previous demonstration. At that time, I had only lived on Skid Row for six months and was sequestered from most of the community until I started blogging. Skid Row had not had a chance to work its magic on me--to truly understand the plight of people who struggle every day.
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<br />This time I possessed the eye of a man who has experienced Skid Row in various capacities for over two years. I have seen many people who are wheelchair bound. I have lived with them and talked with them, and have grown to appreciate the various challenges they face every day and the courage it takes to face each and every one of those days. I no longer live on Skid Row but I still work there. However the lessons I learned from the people who need supportive services help me every day as I assist in taking care of my mother, a dementia victim.
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<br />One can not live on Skid Row and not be affected by the environment. It changes you. if you possess your total faculties and are physically able you begin to appreciate how fortunate you really are. You see people struggle so hard to make it from one block to the next, going to the store or to an office to handle their business. Day after day the fight to survive.
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<br />These people need allies more than once or twice a year when the TV channels hustle to get wheelchair bound people to compete against other channels who are doing the same. The union workers should launch a never ending campaign to assist those who are needy instead of only when they need them to bolster an argument to save their own jobs.
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<br />Every where I travel in this city, I see physically and mentally challenged people. They are forgotten by the masses and isolated to fight their own battles until the spotlights need them again.
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<br />Cindy, a spinal chord injury victim, is the woman in the picture. She speaks on the video about her concerns. Cindy should not have these concerns about which she speaks. Can TV take a time out from customary practices and provide coverage to a category of our population that needs their assistance and commitment. Can the media and unions fight for them longer than just the time it takes to create a sufficient sound bite? Can the population get behind the struggles of people who need 24 hour care and compel the government to care for them regardless of the budget situation. Can America find its moral compass and use it to maintain the course for a better humanity? Are we able to embrace these people and demonstrate by our actions they are not are not forgotten? Until we do, people who need help will continue to be isolated. As long as they are isolated from the mainstream population, the mainstream population will be isolated from themselves.
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<br />skidrowscribehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02420413452464606978noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677701812202382907.post-77609002384836789462009-05-09T17:00:00.000-07:002009-05-09T17:18:29.987-07:00Homeless Children<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhDN1ZKX7L3zA0un4dyNjvHV-4EO88ye7XBwgrViuF3D68PPv0BR6092MY_doZbY7wuiPmXYzXlxbtIS8Vgml7Th90UA3LzAolX04LK-rBbYQ3eLPuaxtXNunUGjDDDXUvNAAbJjG-V8FD9/s1600-h/brehanna+crying.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 268px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhDN1ZKX7L3zA0un4dyNjvHV-4EO88ye7XBwgrViuF3D68PPv0BR6092MY_doZbY7wuiPmXYzXlxbtIS8Vgml7Th90UA3LzAolX04LK-rBbYQ3eLPuaxtXNunUGjDDDXUvNAAbJjG-V8FD9/s400/brehanna+crying.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5333979139847575522" /></a> People are under the impression that the homeless are so because of their own decisions. <br /><br />Approximately 40% of the homeless population are children. How can America turn its back on children? How can the State of California try to make cutbacks that increase the vulnerability of children and the elderly? I can not answer that question but the practice continues. <br /><br />Here is an <a href="http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/30644993">article</a> about a homeless girl who became that way without making any decisions. All children become homeless because of factors over which they have no control. <br /><br />They suffer though we can bail out banks and have the money go to the executives that created this catastrophy in which we find ourselves. Go figure.skidrowscribehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02420413452464606978noreply@blogger.com67tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677701812202382907.post-45974209800197023442009-04-29T22:29:00.000-07:002009-05-01T22:30:01.671-07:00Death and Drugs<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh86MWETwuhTz1-I5AQ5wPDL_61mzhjktGBLuJQez1hvSIGvRfraVuLLGQhy9g9ixiLyJ8Ma8Gxg1euwGuNxVuSZW8-Z9dVryp-dMPkdqSjutnpkWwowXUUCxMnJszcHLQc779zsppxZAxd/s1600-h/Coroner.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 225px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh86MWETwuhTz1-I5AQ5wPDL_61mzhjktGBLuJQez1hvSIGvRfraVuLLGQhy9g9ixiLyJ8Ma8Gxg1euwGuNxVuSZW8-Z9dVryp-dMPkdqSjutnpkWwowXUUCxMnJszcHLQc779zsppxZAxd/s400/Coroner.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5330352802987059346" /></a>"Walter, did you hear about the shooting around the corner?", he asked me when I walked into the office for work over a week ago. He was referring to the two murders in the Lamp residential facility. The rumor is that it was a contract killing: competitors in the drug trade could not arrive at an agreement so two men died/ <br /><br />"Walter, just so you know, a woman overdosed in the shower on Saturday," were the first words uttered to me on Monday when I again reported for work. <br /><br />"Walter, we just found another person dead". That was yesterday. One man loitered about asking questions, feigning concern and interest in the fate cast upon the deceased. However the strain draped upon his face made transparent what he believed was concealed: he was worrying if it was his heroin that killed the deceased. It was not easy to discern if he was worried to ease his conscious or if that anxiety was due to the fact that he may not be able to use his own supply.<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiZSsEAQMI19ng4Xwq-B6A_OK4KQQvirO3aQ5wsh00vyh3plW3BmXfwcaPWR2hUJTCZqh7WCD1NumBIjg5CHTgTl1mlpiK03I3FI0xp7MDFewtR3DemVTyBKoKWfeUnp8LVHBnO0M40LDtb/s1600-h/body+bag.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 225px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiZSsEAQMI19ng4Xwq-B6A_OK4KQQvirO3aQ5wsh00vyh3plW3BmXfwcaPWR2hUJTCZqh7WCD1NumBIjg5CHTgTl1mlpiK03I3FI0xp7MDFewtR3DemVTyBKoKWfeUnp8LVHBnO0M40LDtb/s400/body+bag.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5330953962220356450" /></a> Four deaths are within a block of each other. All of which are related to drugs. Family and friends are weeping day and not for their love ones who are gone. <br /><br />A man was looking for his son. He presented me with a flyer. His eyes waited anxiously while I studied the photo. Yes, I thought I had seen the man. No, I was not sure. I did not want to give him hope yet did not want him to be discouraged. Fortunately he shared with me that others had seen him. They called him but before he could arrive, they man had vanished. The man was his son. He walked out of a drug rehabiliation facility and landed on Skid Row. He had only a few weeks to before he completed the program. Once finished, he could have gone into court, had his probation cleared and case of possession dismissed. Now, he risks being returned to jail or prison. His probation officer explained to the father that he must report to him before May 5. Otherwise he will have violated his probation or parole. The father was not clear. It makes not difference what it is called. Incarceration is the same, no matter the label.<br /><br />Yes, the coroner wagon is not an uncommon sight. Its presence does not dissipate. It has a waiting clientel standing on 6th and Gladys though they may not realize they are patrons of the morgue. <br /><br />I did drugs for a long time. I was not surprised that I stopped, though it seems to fascinate others. Yes, the relapse rate is high. Sometimes I believe it is high because people are told that relapse is expected. Self fullfilling it becomes. I am not concerned about how to stop. <br /><br />I am more surprised, as each day goes by, that I ever started. Exploring is one thing but remaining in that forrest is quite another. Once you go deeper and deepr into it, it does become difficult to find one's way out. It becomes easier to stay in it than fighting to get out of it. <br /><br />There was a friend of mine. We were on a high school championship team together. We went to school together from the 7th to 12th grades. When I came home once I saw his name on commercial real estate signs along the Wilshire Blvd corridor. Eventually I worked with him. However there was a night when we had a long conversation and he shared with me that he did not like doing what he was doing. He was making well over $250,000 a year. Why did he keep doing it? "I do it because I am good at it". He did not mention that he did it because he made a lot of money. The psychological income was more valuable to him than the money. <br /><br />Why did I continue to get loaded off drugs? I got loaded because I was good at it. It is ironic that being one of the best at something is the road to destruction. Never the less I was good at it. I was a good liar,when, after my money ran out, I could find inventive stories to borrow more. Of course, it tormented my soul. However that was offset by the warped sense of accomplishment I felt when I put it all together to make a deal. <br /><br />When one sets out to get loaded, you have a goal. When the goal is accomplished, you feel up with confidence. Yes, you see the day when it all may catch up with you. but you continue because it takes so much to turn your mindset around long enough to make a dent in carving out a new path, an enduring path.<br /><br />Last week, the Safe Cities Initiative almost fell prey to the budget ax. Yes, the mayor's office said that it was an oversight. I find it easier to believe that there is good swamp land in Florida to purchase. There are too many checkpoints that the budget to pass--too difficult for anything to be missed.<br /><br />It is much more plausible to believe that the Mayor's office believed that it could not gain any more political capital helping Skid Row and that in a time when people are concerned about surviving, they could take away the little Skid Row had been given. <br /><br />Yes it is the time to tighten belts. But does it have to come on the backs of the people who have nothing and need the most help. It costs the city a lot more to house and cloth people in jail than it would to teach them something, that when they learn how to do it, they feel good about themselves. Something that can help them earn a living. <br /><br />It is not the time to cut back on Skid Row. It is time to increase aid. People will return to jail if, after freeing themselves from drugs, there is nothing upon which they can grab, that makes them proud of themselves. <br /><br />If the city does not go that extra step. The coroner wagon will continue to be a regular guest in the Skid Row community.skidrowscribehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02420413452464606978noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677701812202382907.post-75235736390115822672009-04-23T13:57:00.000-07:002009-04-23T21:30:22.556-07:00Lesley Taplin And Now 'The Soloist' Teach The Nation about the Power of Love<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhVSDT6y_avy0d2L1bIHw5Cwuc1DBfeMWn52QM9nxUMzyRo0mCUzidEVlzfOGymr-8swihLXNhYRsLCTP1nO5vWXvAXRTXQuVOG_fuPPJ41g24CazqeGLKNRxqqSDtETLtcyL2kNThfhVHl/s1600-h/Fox+as+Ayers.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 200px; height: 366px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhVSDT6y_avy0d2L1bIHw5Cwuc1DBfeMWn52QM9nxUMzyRo0mCUzidEVlzfOGymr-8swihLXNhYRsLCTP1nO5vWXvAXRTXQuVOG_fuPPJ41g24CazqeGLKNRxqqSDtETLtcyL2kNThfhVHl/s400/Fox+as+Ayers.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5327994104911165090 " /></a>Lesley Taplin died recently in a car crash.was a tireless supporter of the Skid Row community. She was an early supporter of the Skid Row 3 0n 3 Street Basketabll League while a volunteer member of <a href="http://www.dlanc.com/">DLANC</a>, The Downtown Los Angeles Neighborhood Council. She championed the causes for children and adults, making resources available that would further the education of both while on DLANC's education board. Her picture will be displayed indefinitely as her spirit will never die in the hearts and souls of the people of Skid Row. <br /><br />It is ironic that her death came on the eve of the premiere of the movie The Soloist, which is a story about the unlikely friendship between <a href="http://www.stevelopezonline.com/">Steve Lopez</a>, a staff columnist for the Los Angeles Times and Nathaniel Ayers, a former musical prodigy who studied at the famed Julliard School until he was stricken with schizophrenia and landed on the streets of Skid Row. As Lesley Taplin developed unlikely friendship with Skid Row, so did Steve Lopez and Nathaniel Ayers. <br /><br />Lesley Taplin understood that Skid Row is a very complexed environment. She knew that the problems of Skid Row were a consolidated, condensed microcosm of America. Indeed, she endeavored to bring attention to the various issues of homelessness, poverty, mental illness, education and human relations, while encouraging the people of the communit to empower themselves. Lesley knew that this place called Skid Row, that many scorn, is a place of hidden beauty and power where one could learn the profundity of life and relationships. It is a place that fascinates me. That is why I call it The University of Skid Row. <br /><br />There is a Skid Row deep in all of us. The good, the bad and the ugly. However, there is a unique purity of kindness that evades all of us to some level. If you remain in Skid Row long enough, you begin to grasp it. it no longer runs through your fingers as easily as water. You can cup it essence and drink its refreshing and insightful purity. Lesley epitomized that purity. She was a professor at the University of Skid Row, the de facto human laboratory of the United States. It is all here for any to see. If you unravel the entangled threads of anomalies that form the fabric of this community, you will solve the issues of the country. <br /><br /><a href="http://www.npr.org/search.php?text=Skid+Row">National Public Radio</a>has done a series of articles about the Skid Row environment. Please use the link to read those articles. It will provide a cross section of perspectives that will serve to generate thought and discussion of the many challenges that we face in ourselves, individually and as a national and world family.skidrowscribehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02420413452464606978noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677701812202382907.post-54647441222831210492009-04-13T12:15:00.001-07:002009-04-13T13:43:23.572-07:00LAPD Officer Deon Joseph<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiB5fl8v8xQ4JXzvVNdWK7pMDEl3uzJXLo76DW3a8l-bPevoXUUEN9apbB-iJZx9y7pGbICo5hqdPlxXsVqcb0MFy0u38XC0z6R6sFZcPkmRGzeM-OhtVIs0LfH1rG-9ctPdfcQt8E5EYoD/s1600-h/joseph+5.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 225px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiB5fl8v8xQ4JXzvVNdWK7pMDEl3uzJXLo76DW3a8l-bPevoXUUEN9apbB-iJZx9y7pGbICo5hqdPlxXsVqcb0MFy0u38XC0z6R6sFZcPkmRGzeM-OhtVIs0LfH1rG-9ctPdfcQt8E5EYoD/s400/joseph+5.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5324257183624303170" /></a><br /><br />Today an article I wrote about LAPD Officer Deon Joseph was published in <a href="http://www.labeez.org">LABeez</a>, the new online hub for hyper-local ethnic news in Los Angeles. I also write a column which is published weekly on the site.<br /><br />Please enjoy the <a href="http://www.labeez.org">LABeez</a> website as it publishes interesting news articles on a variety of issues that impact the various communities, and thus, all of us. <br /><br />I would like to add that I have started a new blog, <a href="http://waltermelton.wordpress.com">A New Era.</a> I share with you my adventures and experiences as I embark on a new phase in my life. A cornerstone to my blog will be the challenges and joys I experience caring for my mother who has dementia.<br /><br /><br />I will continue to post on Scribeskidrow material pertaining to social issues in general as well as those traditionally associated with Skid Row.<br /><br />Thank youskidrowscribehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02420413452464606978noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677701812202382907.post-46748682503467668482009-03-24T05:23:00.000-07:002009-03-24T07:32:34.181-07:00It Is Over--A Free Man<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgMhr9NVz196XuTaWdfiLT90x4IL0hMqpQYvPVb0vFm9U6JAgr1XREgEslbGMala7Po0_ZJZuOrSMonjJ1EMYpFBpWwELsUgsJiiPIS0vMxxr_c6mRpOhajmwHCYICeeBIbZVF_oLQJFWLs/s1600-h/free.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 225px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgMhr9NVz196XuTaWdfiLT90x4IL0hMqpQYvPVb0vFm9U6JAgr1XREgEslbGMala7Po0_ZJZuOrSMonjJ1EMYpFBpWwELsUgsJiiPIS0vMxxr_c6mRpOhajmwHCYICeeBIbZVF_oLQJFWLs/s400/free.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5316729613124105362" /></a>4:00 AM. So silent. The energy is peaceful. No cars are driving by the window. I am sitting with the shutters open in the dark. A green traffic light never changes in the background of my peripheral vision. Every few minutes a jet quietly floats overhead as it begins its descent into LAX while the heater whispers in warm air behind me.<br />I am not sleepy. Just very reflective. At the same time I am planning. I can plan now. My life is once again my own.<br />On March 18, I walked into the Criminal Courts Building (CCB for those who are more familiar with it than they would like to be). The hearing had been postponed on three occasions but this time all parties were present. <br />My Attorney spoke and he recited the team effort of private attorneys, public officials and police officers that assisted me along the way. It was a verbal parade of un sung heroes for whom I owe a debt that can never be repaid. Two motions were on the table—reduce the felony to a misdemeanor and end probation early.<br />The DA spoke. I received accolades that I could not believe were used to describe me. A little less than three years ago, the same person wanted me behind bars, fighting vigorously to keep me away from my family. She recounted the complete timeline of my Skid Row experience and as she did so I felt each stage of time, and the texture of my emotions that corresponded to that time. Sometimes I felt the pain. At other moments I merely remembered it. The DA was asked by the judge whether or not she agreed that the motion by my attorney that the felony be reduced to a misdemeanor be granted. She agreed.<br />The judge looked at me. He had heard the various versions of the success stories that were shared and he added to it. We had gotten to know each other during each delay as the previous commissioner had been appointed to a judgeship in another courtroom. He told me to come back and visit him and let him know how my life was coming along. Both motions were granted. I was no longer a felon in the eyes of the legal system. Probation was lifted. My attorney will file for expungement shortly. When he finished there was an eruption of applause from the courtroom. I turned to face the roar and saw that every seat was filled with smiling faces. It was a very special moment. I was a free man.<br />I walked out of the building in a blissful, dreamy state. Suddenly it hit me that I did not have to go in there again. It also hit me that I was free for the first time in my life. Sure it was not until three years ago that I had any record but I lost my freedom when I made the decision to experiment with drugs and embarked on a lifestyle of recreational consumption, or so I thought. I was dependent on those drugs. I was not guilty of the crime charged but I was guilty of making bad decisions and exercising a behavior that was destructive and put me in the position for Murphy’s Law to happen.<br />Since January 1 I have been back in the family house taking care of my mother and enjoying every bit of it. I have thought of this phase of my life that has ended. The lessons learned from it will be nothing compared to what I will learn from it as each day comes and goes. <br />For years I missed out on much of life smoking the time away in one room or another , alone or with others who chose the same form of self destruction. Now, I try to live it like there is no tomorrow and attempt to do something different and new every day. <br />This weekend, after the burden was lifted, I relaxed for the first time in years. I drove to Venice Beach, had lunch,breathed the fresh air and felt the crisp wind beating against my face. It was wonderful. I was alive and living life.skidrowscribehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02420413452464606978noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677701812202382907.post-26963941271181995922009-02-18T22:20:00.000-08:002009-02-18T23:10:09.415-08:00"Did you fuck the bitch?"<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgqDdK7SUq_HFrFsGyA9qktGhqS_84k4ZhswFqg6KE7B3wrEPahvqWUuE25xYSElKMsxBUuhQgk2lroP8bg79LaM96-4NlHymn_PB2-_cJ4KsqhCIRc8_dd1jBXUt1Y9Sh1HtN4QHXEJIEL/s1600-h/women.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 225px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgqDdK7SUq_HFrFsGyA9qktGhqS_84k4ZhswFqg6KE7B3wrEPahvqWUuE25xYSElKMsxBUuhQgk2lroP8bg79LaM96-4NlHymn_PB2-_cJ4KsqhCIRc8_dd1jBXUt1Y9Sh1HtN4QHXEJIEL/s400/women.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5304390691814467826" /></a>“Did you fuck the bitch?” , the words were banging inside of my head as I was driving through Skid Row on my way home. “Did you fuck the bitch?” I was reliving the moment when I first heard that question, my eyebrows raising as I stared at the man who whose fingernails were scratching against the chalkboard of my soul. He had walked into my office earlier in the evening while I was filing something away in a back room. I heard someone walk through the door and immediately walked out to see who was coming in. One does not want to be surprised on Skid Row. It is safer that way. I met him between the door and the backroom, in the narrow corridor that served as an impromptu rendezvous, not of my choosing. “Don’t swing at me Walter; I know I owe you some money. I got you on that but I came to tell you something”. <span style="font-style:italic;">Like hell you do you lying SOB. You are not going to paying me a dime. And you really don’t want to tell me a thing. You are baiting me for some reason but I will find out what it is in a minute. You are too obvious. You always have been. </span> It was Michael. He and I work at the same company and he was a resident where I work. For months he would borrow a few dollars from me and would pay me on payday. There was no need to pay his debt when he moved out as he did not have to see me every day. Payment to me was the cost of passage to his room. He made more money than I did,lived rent free, had endless overtime hours but it never seemed to be enough for him. He was not doing drugs, at least not those that are material for a rapid brush fire of gossip in the neighborhood. His kind of drug is the dominant, though not unanimous docrine in most circles of the male population in Skid Row His addiction is power. Sex is his tool to gain it. Women are his victims. Any woman. If the woman could breathe he wanted her. Had to have her.<br /><br />It was rumored that he could not keep himself in his pants and his adventures were constant topics in the virtual employee coffee rooms throughout Skid Row. But embellishment is a key ingredient in the Skid Row storytelling culture. Or it seems to be. So I took what I heard with a grain of salt, filtering information into the categories of possibility and probability. Then I saw for myself when, every night, he would parade women in shifts for fifteen minute interludes inside of his room. “Oh, ok, I get it now. That is where his money goes”, I noted after having a front row seat to his escapades. <br /><br />So I stood there and waited for him to continue with what was obviously a subterfuge of some sort. “You have to be honest with me, Walter. Seriously.” <span style="font-style:italic;">You got a lot of nerve demanding even a hello from me, let alone honesty. </span> “Did you fuck Karlita? Did you fuck the bitch?”<br />While he was trying to figure out how to continue with this charade, a resident walked by my office and yelled,” You can come by in 10 minutes to get your chicken, I am a little late.” <span style="font-style:italic;">OK, so that is the reason. You spent your money on the hookers. You are hungry and the only reason you would come into this building is because you had no other way of feeding yourself. You had to walk by me and and figured the best way to distract me from telling you about your lying ass was to distract me by talking about something you figured would keep me from throwing you out of here, sex. You are not worth a rat’s ass.</span><br />“Ok man, I got some info for you. She did it. Karlita finally went out. She finally went out and she is on one. You can get that pussy for cheap now. 10 dollars. But Robert is fucking it up for everybody. He paid the hoe 400 dollars to eat her pussy. Stupid mother fucka. If he keeps doing that, the brothas might have to pay the bitch 20 dollars for some head and some pussy. Someone ought to kick his ass!!!!” , he barked.<br />I did not say a word. I just looked at Michael while he was basking in one of his hobbies—being the Paul Revere in Skid Row, announcing to any predator who could hear that a woman was ready for the taking. “Fuck her, abuse her, demean and humiliate her as you please. And while you are at it, make her suck your dick even harder to make up for the times she would not respond to the insulting and degrading overtures that you made. I mean why not, you were only doing the bitch a favor letting her service you!!” It is the dogma that is part and parcel to many on the Nickel. I just looked at him and thought about Karlita and many that I met like her from the moment I set foot on the Skid Row campus.<br />Karlita is one of many women that have a past. It is part of the Skid Row pedigree, not unique to it, but more visible on the women and men in the community here than in other places. Women struggle to carry the shame with them as they attempt to walk with dignity through the streets of Skid Row while men are offering drugs and money to them, baiting them to come back into the fold of self destruction. The burden of guilt is heavy on their shoulders but you would never know it. They are stoic in public. They shed tears when they are alone with themselves or with fellow women in private rooms where they can talk openly about their pain with those who can appreciate how deeply the ‘past’ cuts into them and the bleeding never ends. There are times when the bleeding is less than other times but it never ends, I was told. Never. Yet there is always the fear that the ‘past’ will come again in the future and the scabs that have developed will give way to a flood of new and more powerful bleeding.<br /> <br />I met Karlita while I was in a computer lab on Skid Row. At the time I did not have a laptop and was a regular visitor of this computer lab as it was the only place where I could upload pictures. I used to live in the shelter and was given the privilege to continue using the lab after I moved from the facility. Karlita was a student in one of the programs there and was making progress putting distant from her collective as well as her most recent ‘past’. She arrived at the shelter from prison which is standard in Skid Row. She struggled but was able to keep the dogs away from her. She maintained focus and a bit of hope. The dogs never stopped barking at her with lurid comments on what they wanted to do with her, not realizing or caring what those comments were doing to her. <br /><br />Red flags came up when she told me she had a boyfriend. Boyfriends are synonymous with trouble on Skid Row. (Funny, I keep saying Skid Row as I always say that when you look at Skid Row you look at America). She had a job when I last saw her. She was widening the distance from the ‘past’. I knew she was still in the minefield but she had a chance. Men kept telling me about this woman that they saw all of the time, “Man this bitch will not give me any pussy. She thinks she is all that. I am going to wait. I will get it. She will fall. She will go out one day. She will start smoking. Then I will punish her and buy that pussy for little or nothing.”. Secretly I would cheer Karlita and the other women on rooting for her to keep walking through that minefield. <br /><br />Then she stepped on one. She was laid off. I do not know if she was smoking at the time or not. The predators say she was. But that means nothing. I waited for word. I called her. Talked to her. She was concerned about getting kicked out of the residence where she lived. She needed to pay rent. She needed money. Those fears drive one to smoke at times. <br /><br />She stepped on another. She was kicked out of the residence. She could not pay her rent and refused to give in to the offers that paid her money but stole her self- respect. I tried to call her. Her cell phone was not in service. At night I could not find her. I wanted to speak to her. Help her. It is interesting that those women, who bleed so much from the pain they feel, help others with the pain they feel. It is ironic that the men who hurt them are the men for whom the sit and listen patiently and attentively while the men tell them their problems and pain. <br />She could hold on no longer. The mine exploded beneath her, scattering her and at the same time catapulting her into a new ‘past’. The predators were happy and Michael, the Paul Revere of that clan, was happiest of all. <br />At night, after work, I drove my car through Skid Row hoping I could see her in the shadows of the night and get to her before another predatory dog could chew on another chunk of her spirit. But I had no luck. And then yesterday I heard that she was beaten up in a facility on Skid Row, one of the facilities where drugs are not supposed to be present but where Karlita hung out because it was easier and safer to get drugs there than on the street. Yes. It was easier and safer for her to get drugs in a facility that demands sobriety from its residents. <br />I heard the residents of this facility beat her up because she wanted more than her fair share of drugs which, of course, would leave them with less. <br /><br />I wondered where she was. I hoped I could find her last night. I did not recognize her stride in the crowds of women on the streets. Perhaps her gait had changed with the weight and shame of her new ‘past’. I searched for an hour. I gave up. <br /><br />I turned down Fifth St and headed to the freeway. My head was pounding and the echo was bouncing from one wall to the other. It did not fade as I put physical distance between me and the Skid Row campus. The echo gloated on the fact that it no longer had to compete for attention as there is so much that can grip one while on the Nickel. The echo reverberated louder and louder while ricocheting from left ear to right ear with each passing mile on the freeway on my way home……”Did you fuck the bitch?”skidrowscribehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02420413452464606978noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677701812202382907.post-60171173826240540532009-02-03T14:32:00.000-08:002009-02-06T01:17:34.127-08:00Paradise<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjvty-zATgdNFFa9JVVeYdF8gInaD9o4R5E3g1qWJ0cDahMUHfoZExz2dHDzbexN4C5iZ0hBv1EH6MUvJRUygVQ4Az_bbitAD7s2yaVFqChMTYYmjQAvyjZNgBkYeQMHSYSKcKmv0SCFZKy/s1600-h/Bird+of+Paradise.JPG"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 225px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjvty-zATgdNFFa9JVVeYdF8gInaD9o4R5E3g1qWJ0cDahMUHfoZExz2dHDzbexN4C5iZ0hBv1EH6MUvJRUygVQ4Az_bbitAD7s2yaVFqChMTYYmjQAvyjZNgBkYeQMHSYSKcKmv0SCFZKy/s400/Bird+of+Paradise.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5298702986010107010" /></a>Life is a paradise if only we give it a chance. For the past month I had been commuting to work, in Skid Row(funny how I view a five mile bus ride a commute), from Leimert Park and then driven to my mother’s house at night. This year has started out with a bang and it’s still spurting fireworks. Every day a piece of the beautiful cluster explodes and reveals more to behold. It took a long time to get to this point. <br />As my year began with new beginnings, so did the country experience the same. It said goodbye to many things that kept our collective growth and spirits handcuffed-an arrested development if you will.<br />President Obama said that we as a country must get up dust off ourselves and begin anew the process of rebuilding and building. Those words were poignant. They navigated their way into the archives of my Skid Row Soul. “Walter, you have to rebuild yourself. Get up, dust yourself off and start over.” Words that were simple in concept, yet the thought of executing the task were overwhelming.<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh5cm-RGIqSXXw5SQje-68g92dOYe3HUbDyKXOrNVf_e0lz9y8NvmhRdRmg21ik01ViDRvbDx2hFhxhZOTe8OA38ZEZ8Jfb0UyZl-c0gX4uvBcz_XJuWQb7UUr5KAGJWnzLvGSXerWXas6r/s1600-h/IMGA0104.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 225px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh5cm-RGIqSXXw5SQje-68g92dOYe3HUbDyKXOrNVf_e0lz9y8NvmhRdRmg21ik01ViDRvbDx2hFhxhZOTe8OA38ZEZ8Jfb0UyZl-c0gX4uvBcz_XJuWQb7UUr5KAGJWnzLvGSXerWXas6r/s400/IMGA0104.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5298703709326583666" /></a>Two and half years ago I stood in the driveway of the family house, next to my mother’s car. She had given me the keys to get the car started. Within minutes, my hands were behind my back and handcuffed. “You were stealing your mother’s car but that is not what we are arresting you for” said the officer. I looked at him in disbelief. <br />Our nation has been evolving and transforming for years and finally, in November of last year, it was ready to take the next step-to make its transformation official. It elected Barack Obama. The official transition period started on the day of the election and it ended on January 20, when the ‘new’ became official. It was a long road and the country traveled it alone from the days of the slave ships to the inauguration ball. It was a long road and it had many challenges. Our problems were many and they were serious.<br />I know a little bit about dusting myself off and rebuilding and building. My development was arrested decades ago when I chose a life of self destructive partying-the high life, they call it. It almost ended my life in more ways that I care to let myself imagine at the moment. I experienced too much of it while rebuilding—the wonderment if life was over, that is. <br />It was a hard road which I started on February 7, 2007, when my ship landed in Skid Row. Of course, I had been on the slave ship Lady Cocaine for a couple of decades, sailing the seas of life in circles, experiencing much of nothing, loosing most of everything and did not see the sands of my soul leaking out of me. As much as I was sailing, I was so anchored. I landed on an island-“Island Los Angeles County Jail”. And there, I was stranded and isolated. People were stranded on the island as well, and many, were dead before they arrived. Many continue to die, in various ways, while I was there. The island made it possible to seal the death of a part of me by separating me from the tides of destruction. Sure, I had made it ashore but the will was a new stalk that had been born and was frail. The island allowed it to gain strength and grow in isolation. It was in that island where the rebuilding began. <br />In the fall of last year, I decided to purchase a car. It traveled many miles on that rebuilding road just to get to the point where I could think about a car. Fortunately, the preparation merged with opportunity and I was successful in making a deal. Each paycheck I made a payment toward the total price of the car and on Christmas day I made the last payment. <br />I was in transition. The evolution started years ago when the forces inside of me fought for something new that preserved life instead of, of the negative forces that was killing it. Many seeds of growth had been planted starting from the day of that arrest. Those seeds were watered with endless tears that I shed, day in and day out. Suddenly, in the pool of many years’ tears, I saw a glimpse of a rainbow. Tears of sadness and heartache became tears of joy. That joy grew every day as well as my view of and the size of the rainbow. The seeds of that sudden rainbow were planted when I landed on the County Jail Island but I did not know it.<br />Today, I went to the Department of Motor Vehicles. I had registered the car and insured it. However I had to get it smog checked. I had my appointment and I could see that things are different at the agency. I had visited it at each step of my rebuilding/building process—the first time was when I needed Identification after landing on Skid Row from the Island County Jail. I could not use my home address at the time. Could not use it when I went to get my driver license earlier this year. Ahh, but I could use it when I went this morning to turn in my smog proof form. It is the address on my new registration. While there I changed my driver license from my Skid Row address to my family house address. Interesting, is it not, how things can change. <br />I finished my business and had my tags in hand, walked out of the door and went to my car. Before I could enter it, an elderly man stopped and spoke to me in the best English that he could. I do not know his mother tongue. Yet we were able to figure out what he needed and I was able to communicate to him to follow me in my car to where he had to go. I was able to tell him a few words that carried him far like the words that carried me a long way, “Walter, dust off yourself and rebuild.” <br />Waiving him on, I went home –a place where I could not go for two years. I went home in the same car, where, the last time I stood next to it, before I purchased it I was ‘in the back of it’—behind it. Yes, I purchased my mother’s car, the same car that an LAPD officer told me that I was trying to steal.<br />I rebuilt myself and I am building myself. <br />I know a little bit about dusting myself off. I had many problems and they were serious. If I can do it, our nation can do it. We already have in some ways but that is just the beginning. The election was the license to do so. We must put one foot in front of the other. It will be tough. We will shed tears. But the tears will water our future and nourish the seeds of a new beginning. It will take times for the seeds that we plant to germinate. But they will. I am proof of that. <br />I missed the Bird of Paradise plant while I was back east in college. They do not grow in the snow of Philadelphia. I used to see them upon my arrival back to Los Angeles when my father or mother would pick me up at the Airport. I loved them. <br />I wake up in the morning and the first thing I do is find a “paradise” plant. Sometimes you can build a paradise in a place where you think there is none. Yet I found Paradise in Skid Row. Found it in myself and waited the test of time for it to grow and spread.<br />Our nation is strong. We have overcome the insidious drug of hatred and divisiveness. Now we can water our “Birds of Paradise” plants together and nurture it to be greater than it has ever been to fly like the eagle our bird is.<br />We can do it. We will do it. I must go. Time to go to work In Skid Row. Time to get in the car and sail. Talk to you later.skidrowscribehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02420413452464606978noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677701812202382907.post-47380521581723511042009-01-26T14:07:00.000-08:002009-01-26T14:27:58.168-08:00sunset<iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.blogger.com/video.g?token=AD6v5dwwnRSZuTA5zwt1OsxaUh_I_rEflT0c_2SYQT4Ic6QR6LMVZg8GkNDcMx756p0Bdp393omOCGIZcQEPoRZ56g' class='b-hbp-video b-uploaded' frameborder='0'></iframe><br /><br />I was at the beach on Saturday and feeling how beautiful life can be. <br /><br />This sunset is beautiful. I wanted everyone to experience it.skidrowscribehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02420413452464606978noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677701812202382907.post-80878934787212115212009-01-12T09:21:00.000-08:002009-01-12T19:59:08.638-08:002009 Came in with a Big Surprise--Transition<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgcKZo7i7gfCDCda30wVjBUGQvxuUwIH1W8tUEH3Gd2JCDHCGRi6R33asb6JyGouqvWmaW27Ivl8oseAmXoQcLRL2aFhm07C4f60ajKc-jqIkZiKC-qOdxnP94FEKaqiGuUtilAQ6Oh_Xyy/s1600-h/me+and+mom+christmas.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 225px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgcKZo7i7gfCDCda30wVjBUGQvxuUwIH1W8tUEH3Gd2JCDHCGRi6R33asb6JyGouqvWmaW27Ivl8oseAmXoQcLRL2aFhm07C4f60ajKc-jqIkZiKC-qOdxnP94FEKaqiGuUtilAQ6Oh_Xyy/s400/me+and+mom+christmas.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5290460924158609618" /></a>It is 6:00 AM and dark outside. Very quiet. A dog bark disturbs, momentarily the peaceful blanket that covers the houses on these blocks. If I recall correctly, that is what happens in this neighborhood at this hour. One dog barks and then another until the family of dogs in the neighborhood sings a morning chorus of sorts. It is music to my ears.<br />This is my 407th blog. All of the previous blogs, all 406 of them were written in Skid Row or somewhere in the Downtown area. I started writing in the Los Angeles Central Library and Little Tokyo Computer Labs. I uploaded all of my pictures at the Strive program computer lab. No other public facility would allow uploading. I was lucky. <br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgcW3nAPeqYipCrskoidmq3Mm8P2o-ZTgG1GMYgc7Gsz88wd4sCUmhFpshen7Ogi_fx-Tc8fUnm4HBkhKjieMxv5DnZ8xGd-v7wLCcbWXFdMqI5VXoY7AAzHo1ghMGVJv39l2Or-XRZN5Ju/s1600-h/mom+sitting.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 225px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgcW3nAPeqYipCrskoidmq3Mm8P2o-ZTgG1GMYgc7Gsz88wd4sCUmhFpshen7Ogi_fx-Tc8fUnm4HBkhKjieMxv5DnZ8xGd-v7wLCcbWXFdMqI5VXoY7AAzHo1ghMGVJv39l2Or-XRZN5Ju/s400/mom+sitting.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5290461488315338626" /></a>This is the first time I have blogged outside of the Skid Row/Downtown neighborhood. I am sitting in the living room of my mother’s house. Yes, you heard correctly--my mother’s house. It was totally unexpected. But I have been here since the 30th of December.<br />I had just visited my mother on Sunday prior to New Year’s Day. I had not found the time to write since I posted ‘Freedom/Merry Christmas ‘. That was a special blog for me, simultaneously marking an end to a phase and the beginning of a new life, with a new perspective-- one that fills me with promise. I had been thinking of what <a href="5thandSpring.blogspot.com">Celia</a> had said about how the sacrifices I was making would provide for an opportunity to sit with a comfortable and pleasing view of life. However I did not expect it to come so soon. <br />I was wondering how long I would have to endure visiting my home only every two weeks and talking out loud for a miracle to happen. Praying for divine intervention, some would say. Two minutes later, my cell phone rang. It was my sister. Two men had broken into my mother’s house. They searched for something but nothing was taken from the house. It did not surprise me. It was the holiday season and my mother lives in corner house. An easy in and out for those who knew an elderly lady lived there alone.<br />I knew my mother had a care taker. Whether or not she was home alone at night was the question that tormented me for two years. There was no way for me to know. Even after I visited my mother I dared not ask, knowing that if I found out, for sure, that she was alone at night there would be potential for conflict with my sister. Cost was an issue and my sister had been besieged and overwhelmed with so many repsonsibilites once I was no longer present. Responsibilities and challenges I did not have, or to the same degree. My mother has become increasingly more incapacitated during the time I have been gone.<br />“Walter, you are doing real well, real well”, my sister said. She was struggling to ask me something. <br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjeJMj7FCBzXCVVCpORBn557ngcq0FFQokVesEcglJIiot416Dh3qvrd-6Ufn0yTFe9P17hovns54Vp5Skxa-WSlB-b2A2j2tIrGqyJMHRRav2mFVFluBzaCCvchQlv244vyJau3qWpwIRA/s1600-h/mom+sitting.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 225px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjeJMj7FCBzXCVVCpORBn557ngcq0FFQokVesEcglJIiot416Dh3qvrd-6Ufn0yTFe9P17hovns54Vp5Skxa-WSlB-b2A2j2tIrGqyJMHRRav2mFVFluBzaCCvchQlv244vyJau3qWpwIRA/s400/mom+sitting.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5290463799774749058" /></a>“What do you need? Anything, I will do it. Just tell me.” She paused as if trying to summon whatever was needed to ask me for help. “I want you to stay here tonight”. It was the most natural thing to ask me but I never saw it coming. I never knew what my sister had been thinking. “You have been doing so well, I was thinking about this anyway with the court date coming up. It was not just because of this incident. I feel you could start helping me take care of mom.”. <br />I work at night but I had not taken a day off since I started. I quickly made some arrangements and was given a two day paid leave. I sat the rest of the day in my room at the Courtland Hotel talking to a friend of mine as I couldn’t believe I was being asked to stay at home. Couldn’t believe I was going to take care of my mother. Couldn’t believe my sister was reaching out to me. I was in a state of wonderful shock. My life had been changing at a steady pace. Jerry Sullivan, the Publisher and Editor of the <a href="http://www.garmentandcitizen.com">Garment and Citizen</a> had asked me to join a team of writers of weekly community newspapers in a new online project titled <a href="http://www.labeez.org">LABeez</a>. It is a new website, a project of hyper local ethnic journalism, managed by <a href="http://www.newamericanmedia.org">New America Media</a> and financed by the Ford Foundation. I have been writing for them since August though the website debuted in December. I had also finished my court ordered classes just before Christmas Day. Finally on Christmas Day, I wrote the last check to my sister for the purchase of my mother’s old Honda. It was a Christmas gift to myself. I was making payments on it for a few months and finally I made my last one. It will take some work to get it going but it is mine. <br />At 5:00PM, I boarded a bus and headed towards my mother’s house. I have slept in this house ever since December 30th. It is amazing where my life was when I started this blog compared to where it is now. For two years, I spent every waking moment in Skid Row. Suddenly, I am not there anymore except during my work hours. I still have my room but I am transitioning out.<br />The experience of being in Skid Row helps me every day while helping my mother. She is getting weaker and struggles in many ways. But I am back. She does not have to be alone anymore. I pay someone to bring me home. I do not want to wait for a bus. Every moment home is a precious one. even asleep when I arrive, something tells me that she knows I am home. I promised that she will never have to be alone again. <br />Taking care of her was an adjustment. It is different being here for long periods compared to a few hour visit. Now I experience her in a different light. The reality of her condition hits me square in the heart as I see how she can no longer do things. I see how it took a toll on my sister the last couple of years. <br />Yes, I clean up after her. Yes, I wash her linens, sometimes twice a day. She cannot control her bodily functions at times. She gets confused about the simplest of things. Those are the moments when I am glad I am here. Those are the moments when I am glad I experienced the University of Skid Row. The experience living in the shelter with mentally and physically challenged people and working in a building to serve them has served me and will serve me well. I will probably begin to learn more about how the experience has benefited me in more ways than I can imagine now that I have a different relationship with it. It has taught me a great deal. It walks with me every moment. Every person I met is in my heart. <br />It is interesting to get emails from New Downtown . I see the alerts when they come in. I can see the downtown skyline from my mother’s house and I smile inside. I know that within those mass of buildings people are communicating and making things happen. People are connecting and expressing themselves. <br />It will be interesting to write about downtown and my neighborhood, Leimert Park. How all of this will come together I do not know. I only know that I will attempt to use multimedia tools of sound slide shows, video, photos and text in a blend that brings stories to life. <br />How I do it, I do not know. When General Jeff told me I had graduated from the University of Skid Row I believe that that may have been the end of Scribeskidrow. But that may not be the case. Scribeskidrow is more than just what is going on in Skid Row. Indeed Scribeskidrow is about what is going on in America. As I have said for the thousandth time that Skid Row is a mirror of America. But Scribeskidrow is also journey about a man who found himself in a place where he did not want to be. It is about a man who is recovering from different mistakes made in life and is sharing his journey of freedom and clarity in his new life. I remember when <a href="http://www.blogdowntown.com">Eric Richardson </a>said to me, “Walter, people talk about recovery but nobody knows what the experience is like.” I sure didn’t. And I had no idea what the experience would be like. I know that the first 6 months of it was terrible. I did not plan on being in jail during the infant stage of my recovery. I planned on swimming and jogging on the USC campus. Of all places, I did not plan to embark on the sober journey languishing in jail dormitory. I never imagined the court ordering me to Skid Row. Each was challenging in different ways. Each put building blocks of strength in place. <br />So this is another step and I hope that the decision I made to talk about my recovery ,openly, will serve to help others realize that it can be done. <br />I am sure that I will share in this next phase experiences about what it is like to take care of my mother. There are many like me who will be faced with the challenge of taking care of one or both of their parents. All of this is interesting because I thought that I would leave LA once my court obligations were over--to get a fresh start. I thought I would just walk away from all of the past. But I realized that I do not have to leave to heal. Furthermore my mother and sister need me and I can now be the son and brother that I always wanted to be. <br />There will be challenges. It will be a process in learning how to deal with my mother and her needs will change and require adjustments every day. This is the first time I have talked to my sister this much in my adult life. Who would have figured? Two weeks ago I thought that she and I would never get beyond this schism. Last week I signed some life insurance papers naming her as the beneficiary in the event of my death. We will have challenges but we have a chance. <br />I think it is just as important for me to share my experiences now compared to when times were so uncertain. It is a new day with new perspectives. I would like some help of a new blog name. I will keep scribeskidrow as it will serve to talk about the issues of homelessness, drugs, mental illness etc. However, I would like a new blog to be about my life, after the storm, and what I see in Los Angele- videos about different parts of town. <br /><br />It is funny because now I seek more balance in my life. I have the opportunity to reconnect and to connect. In the midst of this transition I had met some women and found that I had been out of the dating seen for so long. My social skills are rusty. But I can not obsess on it. I learned, during my stay on the Row, to let things go. I told you many times that on Skid Row people always say to stay focused. And I have been. But now with this new responsibility, I have gained a deeper level of understanding of what focus is and what that level requires. Basically priorities must be in place and the life's management system must be such that nothing impedes fluid progress in being, in thinking, in actualizing. So letting go was automatic. I will get better as I move forward in this new stage.<br /><br />I did not think of the name Scribeskidrow. I never would have come up with it. It was the baby of a man who sat at the computer bank in the Transition House. It fit. I would like some help in coming up with a new name that embraces all of the changes in my life (2009-new life) (Adventure 2009) (life’s Rainbow).<br /> <br />Any ideas would be appreciated. <br /><br />Thank you for taking the time to read this post. The New Year has come in a big way for me and it has brought new challenges and opportunities. I do help that in this year I can maintain your interest with interesting stories. That is my aim. Be Safe. <br />Time to give my mother her medicine. <br /><br />Happy New Year.skidrowscribehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02420413452464606978noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677701812202382907.post-31236450761974195832009-01-01T07:11:00.000-08:002009-01-01T07:29:33.522-08:00LA Mission Christmas Meal<object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/yLNisbrDMpc&hl=en&fs=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/yLNisbrDMpc&hl=en&fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br />On Christmas Eve, the LA Mission gave their annual Christmas Meal. This year there has been a lot more need for their kind service as the economic downturns has hit people from all walks of life. Most missions have seen a surge in the demand for free meal services. "It is clearly economically based", said Herb Smith of the Midnight Mission. "Our greatest increase has not been in the form of hot meals but<br />in carry out box lunches. People are working,but in order to keep paying rent and the other bills, they must sacrifice the amount of money that can go for meals. The hot box lunches also go to women with children. We have seen a upsurge in single parent women requesting meals for their children."<br /><br />At a time when demand for meal services are up, all of the Missions are experiencing a decrease in donations. They are off anywhere from 10 to 30 percent, from this time last year, depending with whom you speak. <br /><br />So clearly the LA Mission had their work cut out for them. There were loads of gifts to give away as well as a show with gospel singing. Everyone was smiling at at a time when there is little to smile about. Later, in the street people were talking about how great the meal was at the mission. So it is clear that the LA Mission accomplished its mission of giving many people a Merry Christmas.skidrowscribehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02420413452464606978noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677701812202382907.post-41917817630238804002008-12-25T08:39:00.000-08:002008-12-27T00:02:37.313-08:00FREEDOM--Merry Christmas<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhN1D7be-m5Of0GfZbPIK5e9XnkzL-o0WDkMrjIlAKlqI8BPf5A45Q1p5S2-215E5VD0cDMxVkQtAK9znsNtA_yZqHFEdXzrOxlom1gHmayOBlpnYT19M-65jQwUj6x0AvPmNGf85fj9L7Q/s1600-h/Christmas+4.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 225px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhN1D7be-m5Of0GfZbPIK5e9XnkzL-o0WDkMrjIlAKlqI8BPf5A45Q1p5S2-215E5VD0cDMxVkQtAK9znsNtA_yZqHFEdXzrOxlom1gHmayOBlpnYT19M-65jQwUj6x0AvPmNGf85fj9L7Q/s400/Christmas+4.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5283772341417203074" /></a>Merry christmas to every one. I have not spoken to you since Thanksgiving but it was very important for me to at least wish everyone a Merry Christmas. Much is going on with my life and I will share the evolution and perspectives with you over several parts in my Christmas series.<br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjXJp9tFeUEgTz72LfSwROhWRt9eheL7yxqaihZds8CwjejZ6da0tBFkksnfkKIbV1bu94Fj3v11e0zBZ-jGfEsVDqeGkX8fhU7SWoK0v3B9rcnF7v19W3BA1HISMXxHHPKTU2S-vO7zVxf/s1600-h/christmas+1.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 225px; height: 400px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjXJp9tFeUEgTz72LfSwROhWRt9eheL7yxqaihZds8CwjejZ6da0tBFkksnfkKIbV1bu94Fj3v11e0zBZ-jGfEsVDqeGkX8fhU7SWoK0v3B9rcnF7v19W3BA1HISMXxHHPKTU2S-vO7zVxf/s400/christmas+1.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5283772064408615058" /></a> Two years ago, I was sitting in jail on Christmas. I had no windows. I had no one except the men with whom I shared Christmas. Instead of sitting with the men at the tables to eat the Christmas dinner, I grabbed my tray and walked to my bed and cried a lonely cry. There were no windows in the men's dormitory of the Peter Pitches Detention Center of the Los Angeles County Jail system, commonly known as Wayside to the inmate population. There were only skylights and from my bunk I could look up into one. I could see a bright sunny day. The sky was blue and I saw an Air Force jet streak past my view leaving a vapor trail behind. It was a beautiful sight, a sight of freedom, and I clung on to that feeling for dear life. The vapor trail was at first sharp and crisp as was my feeling of freedom. Slowly it began its dispersing process and as it evolved in that process, so did my feeling of freedom. Finally the trail disintegrated and, of course,there was no evidence that it ever existed. In my heart there was no evidence that I had ever been free. That feeling was not only a function oflanguishing in jail, but the years of substance abuse that preceded it. No matter how my life appeared on the outside with the facade of success with titles and suits, I was shackled to dependency. Freedom in many ways was a stranger to me and my search for it was like the endless quest for the Holy Grail.<br />I found it all the more tragic because my legal problems started AFTER I finally succeeded in overcoming drug use. “Why now?” I kept asking myself. I had worked so hard and battled for so long in a lonely fight that finally ended in victory. I deserved to enjoy it. <br />Jail was followed with a court ordered stay at a facility on Skid Row. Of course I thought the judge had ordered me to a drug program. But that was not the case. And even though I did everything the program told me to do, I was told, seven months later, though I could leave, I still had to go to another program for 52 straight weeks.<br />Whenever I looked west from Skid row, I could only see the Great Wall of the Office Skyline. It separated the reality of my existence from what I viewed as freedom and dreams. Skid Row was the dormitory cell. The North-South Skyline dividing line of the office skyline was the row of bars in the skylight that reinforced the fact the freedom was so close but so far. And of course the other side of the skyline laid freedom. <br />Of course, many other physical things were in place to reinforce the idea that I was in one world and there was another one far beyond my reach. Seeing friends of mine on television, for one reason or another, was a big one. It practically drove me crazy. I felt like I could not dream about that world. That world meant freedom and I was far from it in a physical sense. Everything around me reminded me of that. <br />I had to survive. I had to keep going. I could not concentrate on the victory of overcoming drug use. I had concentrate on making it through each day emotionally and endure the test of time. I was on a mission and nothing was going to deny me. I had to feel freedom and it was going to be a feeling that I had never before felt because what defines freedom as a teenager or young adult is completely different from what defines it for a middle age man. What defines imprisonment however can be the same and I shed those shackles of psychological dependency and thus rid myself of that nature of imposed psychological and physical imprisonment. <br />Sure I had the courts limiting my options and they seemed to extend for a lifetime. But people kept telling me life would change. “Just keep going Walt. At least now you know what you must do. There will be no other surprises. Just keep going. “<br /><br />I found that program. It was slow but each week I knew one thing. Each week I would get closer to the end. I started classes on November 29th of last year. It was rough. I had to pay for it. I had no money. I found the money collecting cans and bottles. I paid my initial fees. Each week I paid something. Each week I went to class. I cussed and swore at a City Attorney friend of mine, Jose Egurbide. I cussed and swore at General Jeff, of Dlanc. <br /><br />Oh yes, before I catch hell from both of them, I whined a lot also. Boy did I whine. Jose let me whine for a second or two then he told me he could not take it. Jeff was not patient on the whining bit. He lit into me so fast it made my head spin. Each of them challenged me. Each of them pushed me. Each of them challenged me to break the most important moat that separated me from success and any vision of creative success. IT WAS MY MIND. I was allowing the courts and what people may think of me to define my future. It was easier to do that than think beyond it. I had lost the ability to dream. I was used to imprisoning myself anyway. I just found a more subtle way—a convenient way to stay stagnant. Why? The reason was simple. That is what I knew. It was my known quantity. <br />“I do not want to hear one thing out of you, Walter” declared Jose, former point man in Skid Row for the Safer Cities Initiative. “You are going to do every one of those 52 classes and you are not going to miss one week. You have your whole life ahead of you. You can do anything. You stopped doing cocaine Walter and you never went back to it. You can do anything.” <br />“Stop with that ole bullshit, man. You can’t let these people or the courts stop you. I am not going to sit here and let you talk yourself into defeat!, barked General Jeff. Both knew I was not going to go missing in action. Both knew I was not going back to drugs. They did not know how long I was going to hold on to the defeatist attitude. Nor did I.<br />I had to kick that. I had to fight back against the mental moat. Each week I went to class. Each week I made one more step of progress. Each week I took a swing at that giant redwood tree blocking my path. <br />I had to stay focused. I did not want to move. Everything was convenient: the courts, the transportation lines, the emotional support, my room and eventually the job. <br />I kept chipping away at that. I finally called one friend. A month or two later I called another friend. I was scared of rejection but I fought through it. <br />I had a victory in one area of life. I had a victory in another area. Of course those victories came in spurts after hard work. You know the stories of my path already. Those victories are not the point of this post. But each week I knew I would make progress. Time would elapse and I would go to class. I would get one step closer.<br />During the process. I slowly felt a confidence developing. I guess I was looking at the little victories that had been going on. They were across the board life categories as I had embarked in the beginning to fix my life in all areas. I wanted to clear the way so I could grow and be creative in my growth. <br />I think it was when I moved to my present residence. I started to focus more on what I felt inside after each completed class rather than getting closer to the end of the obligation itself. Each week I developed more confidence. Each week I noticed that more and more of what had faced me was gradually moving behind me, in addition to the other challenges and victories and confidence that came from it. Roots of confidence were building inside of me. Each week, fresh water, nourishing that confidence, showered onto me with each passing class. <br /><br />I began to notice that I was not calling Jose or General Jeff to sooth my insecurities about the future. When moments of doubt would surface, I would take a deep breath and say “Walter, you have been through this a thousand times. The feeling will pass. Ride it out.” And it would pass. Perhaps it took take a while but it would pass. “Ah yes, FREEDOM.” I recognized that over a period of time I started training in the triathlon, I was building my ability to be free. It started with the obvious dependency of drugs. Yet over a period of time, even while sitting in jail, I was learning, across various platforms and categories, the respective formulas for being free. <br />Along the way, I was learning new skills of independence, skills that I had took for granted and neglected to nourish them. Soon they wilted like a plant in the hot sun that goes without water. I had the pleasure of observing myself like a parent who marvels at watching his child grow and learn. I was marveling at myself. And that feeling of despair, of being on a deserted island of misery, was dissipating.<br />Greater efficiencies in recognizing short term confidence lapses kept me on track. Increased confidence kept me striving. And each week I got closer to the end. <br />I knew I was building a broad foundation of confidence a pyramid where the pinnacle would be Maslow’s phase of actualization. I had to go through the process. I realized that I had the confidence that came from hard work and perseverance. Every day I knew I did everything I could to be the best I could be. I worked on every single category of necessary development. The pieces of growth were coming together. They came together within each category and soon I was integrating and blending the categories for greater efficiencies. Economics of scale in all categories increased. <br />My first move from a shelter was to a room on San Julian St. I would visit the roof top and look west. I viewed my physical distance from the core of skid Row to the Skyline as a measure of progress. I was closer to the buildings. I had the feeling I was almost within grabbing range. However, mentally, I was still light years away from understanding. There was a huge mental moat that separated me from freedom, a moat as formidable as the bars in the skyline that separated me from the clear blue skies that I could see from my bunk in the county jail.<br />I moved to my present location. And yes, I was even closer to the Skyline. I was closer to the border of Skid Row. I realized that over a period of time, it made no difference to me where the physical border was. Mentally, I was crossing the moat. I was building my own bridge across the murky waters of mental imprisonment. <br />On Decemer 19, 2008, I went to my last class. It was over. I reached the end. I was free. I no longer had to do anything to fulfill the court requirements. I also realized that I no longer worried about if the felony would be reduced to a misdemeanor or not. I was going to make it. I had built a foundation of various sorts that insured me a future. I knew it. I believe it. I earned it.<br />Early this Christmas morning, I decided to look up John Wooden’s Pyramid of Success. I found a colorful picture of it and studied each building block. I read them. I never really studied them when I saw them as a young adult, in corporate training sessions, where the instructors made the pyramid a standard handout.<br />There it was. In front me was everything I had experienced from the moment I jumped into the pool at USC to train for the triathlon, purging my dependency on drugs, to crossing across the moat of mental and emotional freedom.----the path to self acceptance. FREEDOM. I had to develop each part of me as a team member and integrate each part of me into a team and push forward. I had to smile. <br />I looked it at the buildings on Christmas morning. The sky was not crisp and blue. It was cloudy. It was dreary but to me it was bright. It was cheery. Physically, I had not moved any closer to the buildings that used to be the Great Wall. However there was no more mental moat. I crossed it. I was embedded in the buildings. I was a part of them. I was on the other side. I was free. I stood there and looked at them and realized how grateful I was to have had the privilege of going through this journey, forging my mental steel in the raging fire and crucible of Skid Row.<br />I made a copy of the Wooden’s Pyramid of Success and it is now the background of my desktop. I stood in the window and looked at the cloudy Skyline. It was beautiful. I was out of the storm. I thought of everyone who helped me along the way, from the person in jail who kept screaming at me to keep writing, to the person on the street who screamed at the demons inside of himself. I learned from them all.<br /><br />It no longer mattered whether I left immediately or stayed a while to do some work. I knew my blog was successful in that it helped me and it is a model for those to follow who are on that quest for freedom. It is not the elusive Holy Grail. It is attainable. I proved it. I knew without a doubt one very important fact.<br /><br /><strong>I had graduated from the University of Skid Row. </strong><br /><br />I walked out of the door. I went to see my mother <strong>It is Christmas</strong>. <br /><br /><strong>MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE</strong>.skidrowscribehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02420413452464606978noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677701812202382907.post-10821534348734993192008-12-04T21:02:00.001-08:002008-12-04T21:20:15.589-08:00Homeless Connect Day.(Queen of 7th Street)<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiOCx4pboI7bWZ1bhRBqdpNX7OnYYmFahWM-xhyTZKEhgOAh2UsEL1WwTloJPt7Ck5yFe45rNql7mHVgQdrGxLLd1ppyowXwTv3dqUdeINDaKx4rGBhrcmnOdD3b4cF2AJGZS1SpWtiumCu/s1600-h/Queen+of+7th+Street.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 225px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiOCx4pboI7bWZ1bhRBqdpNX7OnYYmFahWM-xhyTZKEhgOAh2UsEL1WwTloJPt7Ck5yFe45rNql7mHVgQdrGxLLd1ppyowXwTv3dqUdeINDaKx4rGBhrcmnOdD3b4cF2AJGZS1SpWtiumCu/s400/Queen+of+7th+Street.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5276171248525235410" /></a>“Walter, what do you feel when you see a homeless person?” I was asked by someone who suddenly found themselves homeless and spent eight months sleeping outside in the courtyard of the Midnight Mission. In so many ways the question was profoundly poignant. It was a few days before Thanksgiving and I had been reviewing the last few years, revisited the path that I took from the day I was arrested until now. It was a terrifying time for the most part. There were many challenges ahead of me and each had its unique set of emotions with a Kaleidoscope of pain, fear, anxiety, and heartache that was specific to each one. Sure, I was thankful that I was not out in the cold but I feared that I would have no place to go. I feared that when I had someplace to go that my benefits would expire before I found a job. If that would have happened, after going from shelter bed to my own room, I would have been on the streets. No one gets points for being clean and sober if you cannot pay the rent. Skid Row is like any other place. One must pay to play particularly in your own rescue. Life is not free on Skid Row. Those who believe otherwise are naïve. Would I win or would time run out. It was a constant worry keeping me awake at night while roaches around me in my former room danced the night away. <br />Occasionally I would look out of the window, in the middle of the night, and see someone standing in the light or sitting on the ground. During rainy nights I could see plastic sheets crumpled on the ground knowing that beneath them was a person tucked inside trying to keep dry. I would not allow myself to feel too much. I was not as sorry for them as I was grateful I was not out there with them. Each morning I would wake up and begin the task anew of trying to find a job, trying to maintain the faith. Trying to take one more step in the tunnel of doom where it was dark and I could not see any light. <br />Finally, through the grace of God, I had a job. It was in the nick of time as my General Relief had expired. I was working and over a period of time as I became more confident that my job was not a dream, I began to feel, to believe that there was distant light at the end of the dark tunnel and a bright new day was emerging. As each day came and went, I believed more and more the lessons I was taught on Skid Row—to be positive and to have faith and that I would get through it.<br />I noticed more and more that all that I had to face was disappearing behind me and the burden of gloom and worry was being replaced by a peace and confidence. What was lost was being regained and there were things I was gaining that I had never before felt, or it had been so long ago that the antecedent experience of feeling no longer applied. It was a new day, a new time. I found it funny that I used to wear a business suit every day and had no confidence and lived every moment with an uneasiness that left a feeling similar to that when fingernails scratched a chalkboard. Now, on Skid Row, there is this growing fascination of experiencing self love while learning new things and gaining insights that I would not have acquired if Skid Row were not in my life. <br />I state in my profile that this journal is the thoughts and experiences while I am in the University of Skid Row. I am proud to be a student of this fine university. There is much to learn here and so few understand the broadband of its curriculum. One thing for certain is if one has spent any time here at this University, one understands pain. Whether one lives or works here, Skid Row allows you to understand pain(of course the flip side of joy as well). Whatever pain you felt before you arrived here is nothing compared to what you experience as you review your life. It is a healing process, if of course, the process itself does not kill you. It can do that is so many ways. From one’s own experience you become adept at recognizing it in body language and so many other ways. The eyes alone are a concentration of study in and of themselves. It is said that they are the eyes to the soul. True. But one must understand the language, the syntax of the meaning. Each variation is a font with its own accent and texture of story.<br />I thought of all of these things over the last few months as my confidence allowed me to thaw out my emotions and examine the condition of my homeless neighbors on Skid Row. Homelessness has many meanings. It creates different feelings when you look at each person. A person is homeless. There story is not homogenous. The feelings you get from talking to one is different when you talk to another. Each has their own brand of pain. It tastes differently from another. Being homeless within the boundaries of the Skid Row district is different than when one walks down Broadway or or the streets further west. People respond to homeless people differently. In Skid Row, though there is a social hierarchy, stratification, and in some cases a caste social order, respect is given to all while experiencing the common areas of the sidewalks and streets. As you leave Skid Row, the level of respect diminishes for those who are deemed to be from Skid Row, let alone concluded to be homeless. A level of distrainment surfaces as well as an abstract distrainment, respect taken away and to regain it only comes when paying the price of having a home.<br />I have said that Skid Row is a reflect of our society. And through the homeless we have the eyes of society’s soul. It is not pretty. It is replete with viruses. <br />I thought of these things over the last few months while wondering about a woman. I saw her one day. She was on Seventh St and Broadway. Bare footed, layers dirt embedded into the souls of her feet served as cushions as she navigated her way from trash can to trash can in search of food. I watched her as she had a striking presence. People avoided her. She was invisible to them. She was not a person. She was nothing to them-- less than an animal. She smelled, I am sure but nothing compared to the stench left by the people who walked by her not accepting her into the human family.<br /> The lady was the lens into the souls of our society and its superficiality. And this occurred while many people across the country were edging toward homelessness themselves, losing homes, as the nation sank deeper into financial chaos. Perhaps it was the fear of being like her that made people ignore her. I understand that. That is a process one goes through when they first arrive on Skid Row, not wanting to be like the homeless instead of helping them. <br />On Thanksgiving Day I got off the bus at 7th and Broadway. There she was, the queen of 7th street. I wondered what her story was. Where is her family? What is her pain? I wondered if anyone cared. It was clear that no one had any use for her. I went into a store and bought something to get change. I walked out and gave her a couple of dollars. I had given her dollars in the past. Yet this time, I wanted to see her eyes. I wanted to connect with her. I wanted her to know me. I wanted to see her eyes. I wanted to understand her pain and translate that into her probable story. <br />Instead I received a lesson I did not count on. She sensed the money and reached out and grabbed the dollars. Her focus was on the means to survival, not her benefactor. She was supposed to be mentally ill, not capable of understanding anything—deranged. She understood one thing and made it clear as her eyes beamed into me with a fierceness I have not felt from anyone in quite some time. She knew that my giving her a couple of dollars did more for my soul than it did to help her survive a day. In the scheme of things, those dollars did nothing for her. They only served to prove that society did not understand. No matter what my level of sincerity, she saw through it and found the virus that was embedded in me, allowing me to identify where it was localized in my being. <br />Society has no use for her. Let me tell you something. She has no use for society. She knows what it is. She knows that those that those that spit on her are one paycheck away from being thrown from their high and mighty homes into the streets where they will join her. More importantly, she understands what it is not. She sees people for what they are and experiences every day what they are not. She has no use for us. She expects nothing from our spurious society.<br />It is Homeless Connect day across America, where social services make themselves visible and accessible in mass to the public. I felt compelled to reach out to society and have it connect to the homeless. <br />What do I feel when I see a homeless person? I feel this sums it up. To borrow the words of one to convey a concept I feel this way:<br />“ASK NOT WHAT YOU CAN DO FOR THE HOMELESS. ASK WHAT KNOWING, HELPING , OR UNDERSTANDING THE HOMELESS CAN DO FOR YOU?skidrowscribehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02420413452464606978noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677701812202382907.post-67749259540376147492008-11-28T12:53:00.000-08:002008-11-28T14:17:27.500-08:00Thanksgiving on Skid Row<object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/Fsb1Ue5NAt8&hl=en&fs=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/Fsb1Ue5NAt8&hl=en&fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object Most people associate Thanksgiving Day on Skid Row with Movie celebrities and grand entertainment for the residents. Though there is entertainment on Skid Row, what surfaces on Skid Row, on Thanksgiving Day is a texture of suffering and loneliness that is not as easily seen on other days. <br /><br />I returned from visiting my mother in the late afternoon. I put my laptop in the room and walked around the neignborhood. They were folding downt the stage at the Midnight Mission when I arrived. The entertainment was over and the reality of life, as experienced by these citizens of the United States, is the aftermath. As the holidays are experienced and enjoyed by many in this country, let us not lose sight of the fact that, while many during these holidays revisit the dreams and hopes they have for themselves and there families, there are, in this country, during holiday times, very scared, lonely and frightened people. They are in homes and warm apartments as well as on the streets of America.<br /><br />They had special dreams, hopes and desires. They believed they would come true.<br />However as what happens more often than not in this world, the reality of life continually leaks upon us, and, in many ways, forms vast oceans that separate many from those islands of hopes and dreams that bring joy and peace to souls.<br /><br />Some people can still see rheir dreams in the distant horizon and can hold on to a faith that they will be able to swim ashore and enjoy the blessings that each respective island brings. To others, those dreams and hopes are not visible or felt. they are beyond the visible horizon and have also beyond the feeling of their souls. These individuals feel lost and feel forgotten. I know what it is like to feel lost and forgotten. <br /><br />Someone recently said "American is better than this." I hope we prove it because nobody in America should experience Thanksgiving Day like these people experienced Thanksgiving Day, 2008. There are many Skid Rows across America where people outside in the streets feel like they will never feel the warmth of being inside. There are people who are inside who feel they are outside or who fear being outside soon. It is a time for people in America to not isolate ourselves, but to reach out and link up and through our links form a strong chain of unity. <br /><br />Lets pray for the people on the streets and pray that we can find within ourselves ways to help them. For to help them we help and enrich ourselves as well. <br /><br />"America is better than this."skidrowscribehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02420413452464606978noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677701812202382907.post-86255033762766264142008-11-17T01:08:00.000-08:002008-11-17T01:22:04.404-08:00HIV Loneliness in Skid Row<object width="400" height="400"><param name="movie" value="http://current.com/e/89487103/en_US"></param><param name="wmode" value="transparent"></param><param name="allowfullscreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed type="application/x-shockwave-flash" src="http://current.com/e/89487103/en_US" width="400" height="400" wmode="transparent" allowfullscreen="true" allowscriptaccess="always" ></embed></object>There is a phrase in the salutation before every class of the martial art Pentjak Silat , “Let my eyes see what they do not see.” I have many times asked that very same thing. I know there are things that I do not know about Skid Row. There are many things that I know escape my attention. Many times these things are right in front of me, but I am just not ready to see them. <br />I have been living in the Skid Row community for almost two years now. And as many have described it, Skid Row is a community where many of society’s unwanted and shunned has found themselves, whether by intent or circumstances that they did not control. I have found that people who could not talk about substance abuse problems can discuss them out in the open. Women who have been abused and were ashamed of their plight could gain support by seeking out someone who share a similar past. <br />I have came here as a client and now I work here and I serve those who have various challenges. Needless to say considerable insight into the life experiences of many who have challenges that are understood or even cared about by those outside of the Skid Row community. <br />I thought every person was visible and could openly discuss their problems and issues. Women and men talk about being disconnected from their families. They also talk about having their children taken away from them. They deal with that pain while fighting the addictions, in most cases, that brought about the reality of their present circumstance. <br />The transgender population is open and visible and they are shunned in most places. So I was led to believe that no matter who you are, you could walk up to almost anyone and you would have an open ear to which you could ask for guidance and direction. But I was wrong. <br />The HIV population in Skid Row does not walk around in open communication. I was in one meeting, in early 2007, in which a person talked about being HIV positive. They are in the shelters but no one knows who they are because of confidentiality laws. Two men died in the shelter that I was in and I did not know they were HIV positive until they died. <br />I interviewed for a position recently. I would have interfaced with HIV clients. It was talked about in a very matter of fact fashion. There was no judgment in the attitude of the project managers in referring to their clients. The case workers view them as clients and are there to support them. But in the community at large, a community in which they are embedded, they walk and suffer in silence. They cannot openly discuss their problems with anyone they see. To do so would begin a wild brush fire of gossip and finger pointing. Soon they would be isolated from others in the neighborhood. In a community where most of the residents are shunned by outsiders, the residents shun a segment of their own population. Ironic isn’t it. In a community where sex partners are traded on a regular basis, where people practice unsafe sex or share needles to use drugs, you would think that there would be more compassion. However, I guess there is a social stratification in every society and in the Skid Row Community does not escape that social dynamic and all of the ugliness that can accompany it. <br />I wonder if there will be hope for the HIV population in the next four years. Will they get the attention and understanding they deserve. When there is so much suffering in our country, I speculate that people will be more concerned with their own security and have little energy to worry about those that are already forgotten by most of society. In a community where there is so much suffering, it is clear that there are levels of suffering. The suffering has characteristics unique to its specific category. <br />Jubal and Cheryl Rade of the HIV Alliance in Eugene, Oregon put together this video. Three individuals talk about what it is like to live after being diagnosed as HIV positive. I hope this video teaches people to have more compassion for others. Many in Skid Row suffer like these three individuals. If there is going to be change in America, let us also change the way we treat eachother. Understand the pain of your fellow man or woman. Thank you.skidrowscribehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02420413452464606978noreply@blogger.com2