RElaxing while things are penetrating inside of me

I am still clearing out the place. I am taking my time.

I remember when my family moved into the family house in 1959 or so. The first thing that my mother did was put in the books. "Start with the books, Walter."

I did just that. My uncle made this book class in junior high school. It was in the house from which we were moving. That was put into the car and moved to the house. I took it out and put it in my bedroom where it has been ever since. It is still there. the book case was an excellent piece of craftsmanship by my uncle. It does not surprise me as I think he is the best at everything he does.

I have remembered that all of my life. "Start with the books". I never start ed with the books when I moved from apartment to apartment back east but it is time for a change. So, this morning, I decided to start with the bookshelves. Of course that happens to be the most crowded section of my little room. Things are burried in there.

As I told you, I am enjoying this phase. Charlotte told me to enjoy this phase and actually did not know how to go about doing it at first. However, I am finding the answers.

I started early this morning and tossed some things around and threw out some more papers. Great way to get started. Just throw out one little thing to get the victories started. Just get one victory. I did the same thing when I cleaned out my mother's house. Whenever I hit a stagnating period of time I found something that I could do quickly to make a difference. Anything. It could be putting the little pile of stuff I swept up in the dustpan and empty it in the trash can. It could be picking up a sock and putting it in the dirty clothes bag. Anything that meant progress.

So after the papers in the trash, I started to clear out some of the corner. I found some space to move some stuff and clear out the top of the pile. Finally I got all the way to the bottom where I found a book that I have been trying to find as well as a bunch of pens, pens and assored things that spilled out of its container. they had been there for a long time and I knew it. However, because I could not see them, it did not bother me. However, it began to bother me recently. As I told you, I wanted things to be structually sound, not just temporarily functional.

So I took my time and picked up the things. I saw the wall that had something spilled on it. I have seen the spill for months but just the top of it. Now I saw it all. Looked like I spilled coffee. Don't forget, I had to get to all of this in order to get to the bookshelf.

I had to clean the wall. I finally had to put that behind me. So I marched off to the nearest 99cent store and purchased two more containerts as well as a bucket and made my way back to the room. I purhased another container yesterday at the Office Depot but not again. I paid the same price for one of their containers but it is much smaller. Now I have 4 containers waiting to be filled up. The empty milk crates and card board boxes are now stacked up next to the door.

Finally, I filled the bucket with soap and water and cleaned off the wall. Then I organized my bookshelves putting the food on one shelf and the supplies like toiletries and things on another shelf. Ah yes the things I learned from the past.

In High School, I worked at Gelson's in Century City as a box boy. Dont put the soap next to the food. That was the first thing they told me.

After all of that, I got rid of some more clothes, taking a batch to the
Transition House.

I ran into a friend and we talked and then I walked through Skid Row. I bypassed the STRive computer lab and made my way down here to the Little Tokyo Library. Something told me I was going to learn something.

I was not let down. I went into some of the shops in the toy district and browsed around. I went into several shops and did not realized that there are alleys with a labyringth of streets that contain shops like in the Casbah in Morocco or in the Tapas bar district in Madrid.

Ah, yes, just what I thought and wanted to happen. I am more relaxed so things are penetrating into me. I am seeing more and discovering more.

I am seeing more on the net. I have read things on the net for months. SEen things.

But now, I stopped to put things together. I know have a little ad box for google ads. I now have a couple of links added to my blog.

I was just not ready to take the time to do certain things or even when I did, the how to part to do something would not sink in.

Ideas are forming. I stopped thinking too hard about them when I got to the real estate part of the ingredient to integrate everything. Although the ideas about them are fresh as well. I think it is because I am beginning to be fresh.

I am looking at Skid Row differently. I am partitioning the elements better. Understanding things better. Seeing more or having the patience to articulate them in my mind more. I will comment on these things later.

I think all of this is because I am digging deeper. I am spending time with myself and enjoying the process of self development. Yes, I am turning my environment slowly into a study. Feels good.

Must go. must get to work. Must look at my new plastic containers and envision where they should go.

Talk later.