it has been a long week, one of those weeks where you do not know if you made progress or not. I worked every day on the set. I made money. Yet I have not had time to prepare my marketing presentation for a prospective position. My Skid Row experience has prepared me well for the position as well as a background in economics and real estate. But you never know. It is a long shot in some ways and not in others. I am grateful that they want me to do the presentation. It means I have come a long way in many ways and now I must meet the new challenges. It is not for the weary.
I found out a dear friend emailed some people on my behalf. Evidently they have something to do with the movie. I was touched. The fact that she thinks that much of me is the kind of support that keeps me fighting. Of course the movie people are concerned that I would write about the plot. And of course the world is hungry for Hollywood gossip.
I grew up amongst those who have built Hollywood into what it is today. I would never try to gossip. I get sick each time I see people pry into the private lives of those who entertain people and try to bring respit moments into their lives from their daily struggles.
Actually, I just want my readers to know that this crew is very sensitive to the people with whom they work. I have been on at least a hundred of sets and this one rates at the top when it comes to respecting everyone and making them feel a part of the whole production family. I believe it is a special production and the message goes far beyond just the production. It involves the ethics and standards of how the movie was made and the conduct of those who arer making it.
Checks are starting to come in. Interviews are beginning to happen and yet the fear of failure never leaves me. I have not had the time to stop and assess the last week. Ever since the day I interviewed at the Aon building, I have been moving non stop. At last, this weekend, I have chance to catch up and organize. The demand for organization increases daily at an increasing rate. It allows for one to be able to think and respond. The need to plan and create is much higher now than it was a few months ago. It is hard to believe that I even arrived here.
I am knocking on the door for a new life. some people believe I have already started it. They believe I have the job. I dont. I worry. I can not let myself speculate on that. I am just grateful that I have the chance to be considered.
I have started thinking more about that job.
A couple of weeks ago I was at a ceremony on the edge of Skid Row. Skid Row Housing trust installed energy saving solar panels into one of their buildings. Today, I read in the Downtown News where the Mayor signed a bill to create 300 jobs in the "greening" industry. I believe that the company with whom I am interviewing could be a part of that greening process in Los Angeles and other cities. That kind of public/private partnership is what they have excelled at. I just wish I worked for them now so I could suggest to them that they should get involved with the "greening"industry. Even if I do not get the position, I will suggest it to them. It is perfect for them.
I also feel that solar energy companies should consider creating solar assembly plants in Skid Row. I believe that they could get tax benefits for doing so and what a great way for Skid Row to change its image. Instead of being the place of the down and out, it could be the place where the down and out become the leaders in paving the way for change in the energy industry. From being a place where pollutants of all types call the environment home, it can be the place where Cleanliness takes over the consciousness of the area.
I wonder if anyone would listen to me.
Anyway, alot is happening. I am trying to maintain a clear perspective and positive attitude.
Oh yes. I went out and tried to find that woman who relapsed heavily. I found out that she was arrested two nights ago. She was trying to sell drugs to finance her habit. That is what happens. The drug dealers recruit the recently relapsed because they know how vulnerable they are. They get them to sell the drugs and they hide behind walls looking over their "investment". She was charged with trafficking. She came so far. It is a sad ending to what could have been a happy story.