I wonder why I share. I had to answer that question. I figured out the answer. Bare with me.
I am at the library after the other place closed. I told you I was surprised at the fact that my name, Scribeskidrow, was at the top of the list, accompanied by the original QUERY, "Walter
find". Yes, I could not wait to utilize my new word. Yes, I have heard it before, read it before, but now it is different. I must incorporate Geek Speak into my vernacular if I am to grow in that spectrum.
I stopped at the Subway sandwich place before I arrived here, at the library. No, I did not want a sandwich. I happen to be a Toll House chocolate chip cookie fanatic. I have been eating them since I was a little kid. My mother used to make them from scratch. Yes, I ate the batter like most people. Unllike most people, I usually ate 70% of the batter. Still, she had enough to make 60 cookies for me. Every one around the country knew about my cookies.
Everyone at Harvard School knew of my mom's cookies. I would give you my sandwiches. I may give you some grapes, maybe. But chocolate chip cookies, they were were handsoff. Nobody got a cookie. Not even my father. Maybe a couple of guys got a cookie from me in my 6 years there, at Harvard School. Occasionally, my mother would make a special batch for my friends and make me swear to share them. Otherwise you could forget it. There was only one person who could get a cookie anytime she wanted but she never asked because she did not know me well enough. That was Pam Archer. I mentioned her recently. Pam could have got anything from me. Anyway, one day I will tell you the story of how Pam Archer and her family helped me quit drugs. She does not know this. She would not even remember who I am. But yes, her family was a big factor in my fighting cocaine. Just so you know, I took Pam Archer to the last concert I attended where I was no hi. Of all concerts, it was Jimi Hendrix. Funny isnt it.
In fact, I will tell you how I knew I was winning the fight against cocaine. It was chocolate chip cookies. Yep, that is right. When I started training for the LA triathlon, I noticed that McDonald's started selling chocolate chip cookies. I started puprchasing them. I liked them.
I am very very funny about my chocolate chip cookies. However, there were times when I would get to McDonald's and I would not have money for cocaine if I purchased cookies.
Cookies lost out. I opted for the cocaine 100 percent of the time. Cocaine would be about the only thing where chocolate chip cookies would lose to.
One day, after months of training, months of writing and examining myself and cutting back on cocaine, I went into McDonald's and I only had ten dollars. I wanted 3 dollars worth of cookies.
If I bought them, I could not buy cocaine. I CHOSE THE COOKIES. "I will be damned", I said to myself. I think the worm has turned. And yes, it did. I knew I had hit a mile stone. I knew I was on my way. I passed the "cookie" test.
Anyway, back to this. After I was intrigued about the order of the query list, I came to the library and researched how search engines worked. There were several explainations, none of which I could recite now but I do understand the basic prinicples. However, I read about some Vanessa Fox who joined Zillow. Zillow is a real estate search engine firm. A start up firm in Seattle. I wonder if it is like a discount brokerage firm like Red Fin. That is a firm I heard about on my favorite show 60 minutes.
That is my point. All of these opportunities and they all seem to be in the internet. Young people come up with the ideas but in so far as sells and marketing, they tend to hire older types for the traditional, boring jobs. lol. This Zillow, is one of those young companies.
my point is one thing, a query about my name in my blog stats lead to more answers about marketing on the internet and search engines and a new company on the internet, Zillow, that is in an industry that I know extremely well, real estate.
My points are several. Learn how to do traditional industries in new ways.
Also, that is why I am sharing. I am like a kid who is learning new things everyday. I love it.
I was learning new things like this before my world crashed. I am beginning where I left off now.
I am making use of the things I learned for the last few months. I have started a blog. I may have 3 readers but I am in the publishing business. There are things to learn from that. I also met someone who is in the publishing business recently. I am doing videos, terrible videos mind you, but I am doing them. That is what the sharing is about. I want every one to see there is alot in this world to learn about and do. It is not just the sharing of recovery. In fact, I hate that word, "recovery". I am sharing what someone can learn if one gets out of a RUT.
Doing drugs was being in a rut. There are lots of ways to be in a rut. Sitting on the sofa and drinking beer, watching football games and getting a gut is a rut. So, look beyond this recovery business. People may not relate to drugs but they can relate to being in a rut. WORK WITH THE CONCEPT. LEARN, EXPLORE. There is a whol world out here and I learn about it by being in Skid Row. Deep isnt it. Think outside of the box, as they say.
Here I am emailing with city officials, riding in police black and whites, continuing my learning of things and I am a felon on Skid Row. You figure. It just boggles my mind. I just have to get a job. I will send Zillow a resume. lol. Maybe, they will open up an office down here.
I just figured out part of the answer to your question, Joe, of City CenterPOZ. I am too busy experiencing new wonderful things to go back to an old rut that does nothing for me. Been there, done that for too long. I am doing new things. I am breathing life again.
Sure, I am alone. Sure, I am hurt in many ways. But when I learn, the hurt vanishes. When I grow the pain dissipates. When I see the potential, my heart smiles. That is why I do not worry about sobriety, Joe. It is the best high I know of.
good evening world. I love you.